I was afraid to get anew one after my previous one died but i fell in love with this pretty Amelano Palmetto. He’s very curious. He didn’t hide when i placed him in his enclosure, he just started exploring it. The first three pictures are of my new one, the last three are of my previous one Pantera.
Went to the hospital for the first time today and had a terrible experience for someone who was a total wreck. I was dissociating because of how anxious i felt about going, so I accidentally sat on the table thingy when they asked me to sit down (i’m sure they didn’t specify where to sit tho) and she just made sure to let me know how stupid i am for not listening to her because she “definitely” said for me to sit in the chair. And when i started crying it was the surgeon that started comforting me. But that nurse was so mean. I never want to go to the hospital again.
I told my psychologist about my self harm in my weak moment. I regret it so much because now she has to tell my parents (obviously). I don’t even know why i told her because i don’t want to stop and now when people will know i feel like i’m gonna be expected to stop. My psychologist asked me what i wanted her to tell my mom and she told me exactly how she’s gonna tell her but i’m still so fucking scared. It’s like something’s being taken from me. I just need some reassurance that it’s not the end of the world and everything will be fine. Please.
“We’re going to the pool, don’t you want to come with us?” “And when are you gonna use that swimsuit you bought three years ago?” “Come tan with us a little.” I want it to be winter already. Just leave me alone.