Anyone feel that overwhelming sense of doom that you're gonna die alone ?
Lately, I have only been feeling hollow. And am overpowered with rage, pure never-ending rage towards everything.
Feel too fat, too ugly (inside & out), and just so so so exhausted to breath. I keep hiding away. Avoid people - friends/colleagues/strangers/humans in general. I avoid stepping out however much i can. Don't think I'm comfortable in my own skin.
Been nerdy, career-focused. Since always.
At this point, don't even know what all of that was for, coz clearly this is going nowhere. Leading to nothing. Yet another average fucking life, waiting till I die I suppose. There isn't gonna be anything good coming, I know that now.
Just. Yeah.
Wouldn't call this a rant, but if you made it this far, thanks for hearing me out.
Take care