u/BurnorAckount

i can see a forehead wrinkle and my nasal folds so much more now ever since ive been spiraling about how worthless and pathetic being a troon is for me. i think the transphobia and the hatred got so bad its making me look more like a disgusting edgy mass shooter which certainly makes my already horrible dysphoria and even my undiagnosed OCD worse. im only 18 and have been on DIY hrt for 2 years, how is it possible for me to look THIS fucking hideous? i know ive been inconsistent with it and i know my mental health is sitting in a fat pile of shit rn but still

even if I started hrt at 13 I don't think I was ever going to pass regardless. it looks like ever since I was 13 I've been fucked over by my wetback gorilla brown face and the only difference between me then and now is that I've gotten a little taller and look like a man in his late 20s with a hormone imbalance meshed with an 18 year old. i feel like I want to rep I want to be a man but I feel like I'll regret it so I still want to transition and im still on hrt but I know I'll always look like a hideous agp man ape so what's the point in being alive anymore