u/Busy_Occasion_3226

Im writing this because this is the 3rd online friend ive lost in my life so far because of my voice. Im so insecure about it that i cant even chat with people. Im 19, ive known about it since i was 17 but my parents refuse to get me treatment. Before anyone says "go drive urself" i cant, i dont have a drivers license, i dont have money for a taxi and my parents treat me like im a child. The nearest endocrinologist is 160km away so its not easy for me to go there with all these setbacks, i couldve had numerous friends by now and been much much happier if i didnt have ks. I lose friends, cant make new ones, cant play videogames with people, cant socialize, cant receive treatment, cant feel good. What can i even do now, i only think bad thoughts nowadays honestly

I used to play rust with my brother about 4-5 years ago (his friend would give me his steam account) and we had a lot of fun, hes moved out since then and doesn't play the game anymore but ive been curious if i should buy it again since its on sale. Back then the game seemed really simple and as a duo we would do very good on servers we played, ive started watching rust again and theres all these new guns, structure skins, vehicles and like BP fragments for the workbenches, i understand all of these things pretty well but even popular YTs like blooprint seem to struggle to get all their BP fragments in their solo vids, is it worth it to even play the game if ill be playing exclusively solo? It seems like solo progression was nerfed quite a lot since i last played, any thoughts?

I know this question gets asked every week but this is just my situation of it, also FYI i used to be very good at PVP and base building so i do have a bit of experience in those regards if it didnt Rust off :)