u/C5Jones

This is just a dump of blind anger in the heat of the moment. I understand if it's a bad fit for the sub, I just don't know another one where people with video experience congregate.

Ever since I started taking it seriously last year, I've known this was what I wanted to pursue as a long-term career. I know there's no stability. I know a lot of the jobs pay shit. I know more of it is business than creativity. I know it's more about who you know than what you know. What I don't know is if I can bring myself to care.

I've been working hotels as my day job for the last three years while pursuing my own goals on the side. Mostly shit properties. My last job, a guest shot himself during my shift. The one before that, someone beat his girlfriend bloody right outside the door. I've had to personally intervene in a fist fight and clean human feces off the floor. Both, I ended up leaving due to being yelled at and having less desirable work forced on me by managers.

This time, I just spent over a month looking for work, going through an ungodly number of interviews, to finally find the perfect one: It was at a gorgeous upscale location, with perfect hours that would let me keep building my business on the side, and little traffic so I could study on the job.

—Only to work for three days and get a call ten minutes ago saying, "You're shitcanned because feedback has told us you're not a good fit. You did nothing wrong. Seriously, you did nothing wrong. For the third time, we're not just trying to avoid hurting your feelings, you did nothing wrong. You're just not a good fit." So here I am, 35 and worrying about not being able to pay for my $700 rented bedroom.

Meanwhile, people are telling me how great my video work is and voluntarily paying me for jobs I was doing pro bono, and it was all I wanted to do the whole time.

I'm rapidly losing the ability to care about any other career. Why even bother taking the stable route if this fucking bullshit is going to happen? At this point, I'll do the garbage TikTok phone shit with a smile on my face. Every other prospect is worse.

Edit: The responses coming in are amazing and giving me a lot of hope. Thank you all so much.

I'll be hosting my WN either on its own site or itch.io, and putting the text in a translucent scrollbox over a different background image each chapter, with ambient sounds. (I also draw and am learning sound design.)

Is this a genre? If so, what's it called? And if not, any suggestions on what to come up with for it? Straight calling it a kinetic novel doesn't seem right, since there are no sprites and only one next button per chapter, so I don't want readers to get the wrong impression.

This thought experiment is fundamentally flawed if it doesn't take into account that if just under half of humanity was killed, society would come to a 100-to-zero halt and the rest of the population would die from the sudden severance of every supply chain. Even if they were a substantial minority, the immediate loss of as low as a quarter, or probably even a fifth, of humanity would be an apocalyptic event.

Electricity out within a day. Tap water no longer drinkable due to a lack of people to run the purification plants; bottled water looted from every store. No more gas trucks, so when your local station runs out, everyone's out. And also, assuming the blue voters aren't Thanos-snapped away just hope your death won't involve a horrific infection from the corpse juice accumulating on every flat surface.

There's a fable about selfishness in there.