u/CHEESEY_CHIP

and i cant say it to anyone irl i doubt he even realises but it rlly creeps me out like im getting weird vibes

like why do i like this awful music

like i REALLY want to date him but im a logical person and ik that a lot of poeple will not like the age difference, theyve openly talked shit about adults dating teens and how its not the age difference its the maturity difference , it doesnt change my opinion on dating him becasue 2 years is not much at all and i think they are being dramatic ... but in fairness i had their opinion before i started liking him so i completly understand it. anyway i would be so happy to date him and i have dreams about our everyday life all the time but i know logically we can never date because it would make a tonne of people upset and i dont think it would make anyone exept us happy AND im worried that later in life ill like think i was groomed or some shit which is stupid because he doesnt even like me, i mean hopefully he does but idk cus ive never been attracted to someone 2 years younger than me so why would he. anyway if he ever asks me out im saying yes no questions asked so this is just stupid venting about all my worries , and i wish i never started likning him,

i cant even like , i didnt even find him attractive but now his face haunts my eyes every time they close , and i find myself staring at him laughing with his friends wishing he would turn around and pull me into a kiss ,i do everything to be nearer to him , i would sign up to something i dont like just to be closer , i would befriend his freinds and i would text him a confession if i was only brave enough. and i stand by the idea that at one stage he liked me when i barely liked him but now he definetly doesnt and now i miss his presence when im anywhere that he is not.

like hes literally 3 apples tall i am so blessed to like him

i starve myself and dont have any cravings for food for like min 2 weeks and max 2 months and i lose an unhealthy amount of weight, then out of the blue i just eat everything i can , only sweet food and i dont even have a conscience , when im starving more people give me attention which i dont love because i already have a crush on someone and other people liking me freaks me out , so i have a theory that i eat more out of stress , but then i feel fat and ugly and hate myself and sometimes sh when i eat a bunch ... how do i find an inbetweeennnn.