u/Cakenomz

When you look at me; you should see a disabled person.

But you don't.

Maybe I don't look disabled enough for you.

Why not? Is it because I can walk?

Is it because I can talk?

Because I don't have a wheelchair?

Is it because you lack empathy?

Do you know how hard it is to have the disability that no one else wants?

The intangible kind that is invisible and unsettles.

That makes others afraid.

The kind that causes worried nights in expectant mothers.

I hope my baby boy isn't like that one.

Why's he so awkward?

What's wrong with him?

It must be the parents.

When you look at me; you should see a disabled person.

But you don't.

Maybe I don't look disabled enough for you.

Why not? Is it because I can walk?

Is it because I can talk?

Because I don't have a wheelchair?

Is it because you lack empathy?

Do you know how hard it is to have the disability that no one else wants?

The intangible kind that is invisible and unsettles.

That makes others afraid.

The kind that causes worried nights in expectant mothers.

I hope my baby boy isn't like that one.

Why's he so awkward?

What's wrong with him?

It must be the parents.

Where are you?

I can't find you.

I've looked but you aren't there.

Not in the places that we shared.

Not in the networks that we ran in.

I need you now, I need to know about the past.

The past where you were always present, but I didn't know I wasn't.

Until now. Now I spend endless days thinking about back then.

Thinking about the time when we were together. Just the three of us.

Sometimes I wonder if I knew you. I think I did.

I think I did more than the rest.

We understood each other. You always told me things.

You knew that I would always tell you the truth.

Now I need the truth. To understand the reasons why you're gone.

To understand the reasons why I sit and think and wish that I could

close my eyes and open them again and be right back there.

In our special place where we had each other.

As time passed I looked back and saw you there.

But then one day when I needed you and looked.

You were nowhere.

and now I have just me.

Hey, I'm just wondering, is there anywhere in town where people who have differences in their social interaction still hang out/play games/chat etc?

I'm just not sure where everyone went since Geek Retreat closed down.

I know we've still got some really good shops but I'm really not sure where people can go to just hang out and meet people with similar interests.

I had considered starting a meetup group with this in mind but the platform seems to have far less activity, and is far more expensive than it used to be.