I’ve been feeling so drained and sad. It’s like I have no life left in me latley. I’ve been trying meditation and being around crystals and water, it’s not really working. Is there anything else I could try? I’m feeling hopeless. I want to stop suffering. I’ve been stressing over lots of things and I don’t know how to let joy into my life. When I smile it feels fake. I feel empty inside
idk im just feeling lost. like i lack purpose. Like something deep down in me is blocked and I can’t access it. I feel like I’m ment for more but idk what. I just kinda feel useless at the moment. It truly feels like something in me is blocked. And lately I’ve been feeling anxious, alone and overloaded. I’ve also lately realized that idek if I’ve ever truly felt love. I need to trust myself, but how do I do that if I can’t access my core?
I’m not sure what to do or what to think. I have been reading up on this sub and have been seeing the news and all these awful things that are going on in the world. How we are all part of one big capitalist system. I’ve been connecting dots left and right and it scares me. Everything I’ve ever known is a lie. Everyone is aware but say well what can I do.
Enlightenment scares me. The fact that we all are one is a very foreign concept to me and the fact that we are infinite scare me.
Everyone is functioning at such a low frequency it hurts. I’ve started to notice the lack of energy in people.
Idk what’s going on in the world but it’s not good. What if ai and the “elites” take over? What about us? Not our physical bodies but our souls? will we ever truly be at peace or will they take over that too?
I’ve been getting angry that no one is doing anything. That people still continue to live like this is all normal. That people continue buying things and supporting corporations while I realize that I am a hypocrite and do the same thing, so I have no reason to be angry.
I started becoming more into spirituality and started meditating before I do my daily yoga. Yesterday night I did it how I always do, and the second I stood up after yoga my stomach hurt. It didn’t last long, then I lied down to go to sleep. As I was trying to fall asleep, I felt this odd feeling. As if I was physically 2x as big as I am really. It felt like energy but I never felt anything like that before. Also the stomach ache was really odd, it lasted for maybe a minute or two right after I finished my yoga.
Also, when I meditate it’s like i gravitate towards a chakra. Mostly it’s the root or sacral, other times it was the heart and throat.