u/CampRepresentative70

Dying is scary, I was thinking about my death trying to fall asleep tonight, the fact that you will one day be a decomposing bag of flesh is so disturbing to me and everyone has already accepted it, even when I was six years old it was very devastating to me. If I died tomorrow by getting hit by a car and nobody found me I would just be food for animals and insects, It feels so scary thinking about how it’s technically a reality and if will happen some day and I won’t be able to see it or witness it, I think so hard and I start thinking about what happens when you die, okay byeeee

So I really believe that i am significantly behind everybody in such a major way it is impacting my life, I have an awful attention span, homeschooled from k-11, dropped out due to major anxiety, I’m looking back on my teenage years lived so far and it’s been mostly sitting on my computer playing video games, my parents tell me I have special gifts, but the lives they both live make me sad to look at, neither have jobs or are really functional adults, getting a job is harder now that i’m old enough to have one but i’d love one more than anything, i guess i don’t share the religious parents aspect of many homeschooled kids because my parents have independent spiritual beliefs which has influenced some pretty odd things i won’t lie, but i feel like such an alien, does it ever get better?