u/CanIAskAQuestiion

Okay so.. I was diagnosed with ADHD (Previously the ADD type back then) when I was around 13. I had never taken medication for it. I've always struggled with being the person that's always late to things, either having an immaculate perfect home or a complete mess of a home. Never in between. Now I am 33 and a stay at home mom of a 11 yr old, 7 month old, a 2 yr old and 3 yr old. I am a good mother and have been doing my best.. but I can hardly keep up with cleaning up the mess involved with taking care of a 6 person household. Also not to mention all the cooking..which I loathe to do but I do it for my kids and my husband.

My husband gets so frustrated with me because he just doesn't understand why cleaning up is so difficult for me when I'm at home caring for the kids. He feels like he has to remind me to do things like I'm a child. There's always just so much stimulation, so much to do.. anyways I just started taking Adderall XR yesterday, and today is my second day! Just in these 2 days I've gotten the entire house cleaned, working on these piles of laundry that needed to be folded and put away, made doctor appointments for myself that I have been putting on the Back burner.. all while caring for my little ones. I feel amazing and ready to take on tasks that would overwhelm me, but also feel like I'm cheating. Like im a fake. I always said to myself "maybe im just not the wifey type and I'll never be like those other moms who always have it all together ". Now I feel like it's possible to be more.

I don't know if or when I'm going to tell my husband though. He's kind of against stimulants because he had taken them when he was a teenager and did not have a good experience. He is ADHD as well but the hyperactive kind. His symptoms are Super obvious, yet he is still so much better at being a self starter and getting things DONE. Am I wrong for not telling him about the meds? I kind of just want him to think this is me.. and have this secret to myself. Or maybe I can give it a bit more time and then tell him, after he's seen how much better I'm doing with the medication. What do you think?

Okay so for context, I am participating in a country wide (US) Karaoke competition, and I have already passed the first qualifier, and placed first in Showtunes, Pop, and Rock. My next qualifier is this Sunday for showtunes, and if I place first or second I will go represent my state in vegas for the country wide competition.

My song choices are World burn - Mean girls, and Somewhere over the rainbow- Wizard of Oz. I chose to sing World burn first, and now I'm highly regretting not choosing Somewhere over the rainbow first. The first song I sing will place me in the top 8, and then those 8 will perform their second song and the top 2 get picked from there. Is Wizard of Oz too much of a classic/boring song to win with? I have definitely added my own flavor, and I'm going to make sure I OWN it. However... can the song choice itself win over more theatrical performances? World burn is just so incredibly fun and shows much more theatrics.. however its much too late to change songs or song order. Opinions? I don't want to lose hope before my competition even begins lol.

Just for more detail, they judge over things like vocal range and control, keeping on tempo, engaging with the audience, singing words clearly, vocal resonance and timber.

Thanks♡