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I was proud of myself for being able to do bicep curls on 50 lb dumbbells. I was also proud of the progress I made in 3 months. Then someone at work pointed out I need to start training my back. Then I looked up ways to train my back without any equipment apart from dumbbells. The first exercise was to do 12 lateral raises. I thought this should be easy.

It was the most humbling experience I ever had. I obviously couldn't do it on 50 lbs. I could only do 6 on the 20 lb dumbbells but then I switched to 15 lbs and I was finally able to do them. I felt so insecure and weak afterwards.

Side Note: I know that among exJWs we have mixed opinions on firearms that is not due to the religion and that's fine I don't expect everyone to agree with me.

Ever since I could remember I loved guns. I thought they were cool. I loved them so much that I said I wanted to be a cop when I grow up for the simple reason it would allow me to use a gun. But of course being raised a JW I quickly realized how Big J views guns. When my mom was conducting a Bible study I played with the child she was giving the study. Then my mom's study partner took the gun away from me and gave it back to the other child and I started crying because he was able to play with the toy gun and I was not.

Ever since that day I knew I shouldn't play with guns because Jehobo says they're bad. I knew that, yet I still couldn't resist the temptation. But eventually after praying to Jehobo and time went by. That obsession went away.

I know that we don't all agree on firearms but we should all agree on one thing. That when it comes to a life or death situation. We will in fact kill someone if necessary to protect our family. That's not the case with my mom. I asked my mom if the situation ever came where she had to kill someone to protect herself and her kids. She said she'd rather die than kill someone in self defense. That was one of the turning points where I said to myself that I couldn't be a JW anymore. Any parent who is not willing to kill to protect their child should not be a parent.

Now that I stopped believing in this religion one of the first things I did was get my FSC permit and buy a gun. After going to the shooting range for the first time my obsession with guns came back. All my life I had to restrain myself from doing what I loved the most. But now I finally felt free.

When waiting to punch in by the time clock. I like to do calf raises or if no one is looking I like to do dips the exit ramps or whatever those things are called.

I also like to do push ups and squats in the break room.

My pickup has a special room just for them. So whenever I feel like doing incline push ups I do them in there.

I also like to do box jumps on the pallets they leave out.

Here are some of the ones I thought of

You need to learn to flip the page, Paige

Go page someone else Paige

Are we on the same Paige? Paige

As someone who is young and single. My motivation to workout was the fact that I was tired of being called fat all the time. Family members and co-workers you name it. In many cases people fatter than me. I am also very cheap and did not like the idea of having to buy new clothes because I didn't fit in my current clothes.

What motivated me to keep working out was the fact that I was no longer being called fat, in fact they were admiring my physique now. What motivated me even more was the fact that this woman I liked started blushing everytime she saw me and she even told one of her friends behind my back that I was really cute.