My parents are telling me its my fault they cant give me money because i dont have a job, what do i do?
I am 17(f)
To start us off, i not only have juvenile idiopathic arthritis but i also have hypermobile spectrum disorder. i try my hardest not to even mention it despite the struggle i sometimes have because i get called an attention seeker if i do. however, my parents keep telling me i need to get a job and i need to stop expecting money from them when my brother has had a LOT more than me, hes had PLENTY. ive barely been out all summer because i was worried about this. i just want to go out with my friends, and they are saying that i shouldve gotten a summer job.
Funny thing is, last year during christmas i did have one. a retail job. where im not allowed to sit down except for during two half hour breaks that barely give me time to recover my joints. while i had that job, it was hell. my customer service even dipped because i probably seemed really awkward and tired due to the stress it was putting on my joints. i would hold back tears when customers werent at the till, and i would disassociate on the shop floor while i was putting stock out to try and forget about the pain. i didnt get my period for two months while working there because of the stress my body was under. when i brought it up to my dad? he said i was being attention seeking because i “always did it when you were little” and “youre just like your mum, exaggerating things that can be solved with ibuprofen” (HSD cant, its a connective tissue thing, not autoimmune) so i was forced through pressure to not quit, and to just give in. yes, the money was good but i hardly thought about that, i just thought about how many times i fought back tears after leaving, and waiting outside, and during my breaks. it was hell. and not to mention how tired i was constantly, and how i wouldnt be able to relax for hours due to my joints aching. and my dad criticising me for spending the money i earned.
what do i do? i hate feeling lazy. i WANT to work, if i just had a normal body. i want to experience what a retail job is like without all of the excruciating nerve and joint pain that would radiate down my shoulders, back, knees and feet. i wish. but i just cant. should i get a job this winter? or do i just not ask for anything at all? i want to be able to fund my own experiences.