u/Capital-Unit6897

Hello I am 18f and a senior in highschool. So since January 2025 I’ve been suffering from what I feel and hope is POCD. So basically I’m in doubt and fear right now because back around April 2025 when I was 17 I was watching porn on Twitter and came across this account on Twitter of a woman just posting her porn videos whatever. Anyways as I scrolled through the account I saw that on her posts she had “#teengirl” and i immediately got scared. I was surprised because honestly she didn’t look like a teenager at all to me and I kept scrolling to confirm it and she posted a picture of her face with like dolly makeup and she looked like a teenager there and it grossed me out immediately and I instantly blocked the account. Of course I was scared and didn’t know how to handle this because I don’t know this girls exact age I was too scared to continue and check because I was just grossed out. I really need help on how to deal with this. At first I was able to let this go by saying “you’re 17 you’re also a teenager and you don’t know this girls exact age, for all I know it could be some weird adult lying or just a 18 or 19 year old.” But I’m just so scared like what if they were younger. I’ve debated on going back to check the account but I just can’t I can’t do it I always begin to cry and get anxious and scared. Please someone help me. I don’t know what to do. I’m scared this proves my POCD fear somehow.

Ok hello I am 18F and a senior in highschool. So for a while since January 2025 I’ve been suffering from what I feel is POCD. But now I’m just not really sure anymore. Basically back in December 2025 a week before I turned 18 so I was 17, I saw a tik tok edit about old Disney channel childhood crushes and I just wanted to feel normal in the moment so I was just like in my head “yea omgg jack brewer from kickin it.” I found him attractive at 14 when I was a freshman. So basically I just searched up Jack brewer on tik tok and there’s was of course a bunch of edits. Some clips in those edits tho he seemed young like 14/15 so I was afraid of that. But I brushed it off and ignored it but i felt attraction to those clips so I was anxious and went and searched up the age the actor was in those clips and it said 14/15 and I was grossed out like I’m pretty sure I said “oh eww” so I went back to those edits but it still felt like I was attracted to those clips but like i wasn’t taking it serious you know and I kept testing and checking and searching up the age and it still felt like I was attracted to him in those clips he would’ve been 14/15. But like I said for some reason I didn’t take any of this seriously. Like I just told myself something like “it’s just a old Disney channel crush who cares it’s not that big of a deal” and like I had seen people in those comment sections of Jack brewer edits you know who found him attractive when they were younger acting like “yea little me had taste” or just like I guess skimping over him? But to me i was like “well he was their childhood crush so I guess it’s not that big of a deal.” Anyways after that I just didn’t take the attraction seriously so I just clicked off tik tok. I wanted to go with my mom and brothers to their basketball practice so I could be calm and not panic but my brothers didn’t want me to so I stayed home. While at home while about to take a shower I began to panic and reflect on what I’d done earlier about Jack brewer. I panicked and began to cry and started getting mad at myself like “what’s wrong with you” “why didn’t you take it seriously” “Does this mean I am most definitely a pedo and don’t have POCD.” I can’t really remember what happened after but I think I tried calming down by saying “it’s just a Disney channel crush” but at the same time I’m like “that dosent matter it’s a real person.” After all this I went to school and yada yada yada but the more I thought about it it felt like that situation reassured me that all the POCD intrusive thoughts and feelings are fake. It’s so weird like it confirmed to me that I was ok. So after that I felt ok you know because it didn’t feel real. And after a while like a few weeks I went and searched jack brewer tik toks to check and I felt nothing. Like even right now because I just recently went and checked I feel no attraction to those clips of 14/15 year old Jack brewer that I felt or thought I felt to. But now I just feel weird because how can attraction like that just change? Am I pedo? Was I overthinking and that attraction was never real? Please someone help

Ok hello I am 18F and a senior in highschool. So for a while since January 2025 I’ve been suffering from what I feel is POCD. But now I’m just not really sure anymore. Basically back in December 2025 a week before I turned 18 so I was 17, I saw a tik tok edit about old Disney channel childhood crushes and I just wanted to feel normal in the moment so I was just like in my head “yea omgg jack brewer from kickin it.” I found him attractive at 14 when I was a freshman. So basically I just searched up Jack brewer on tik tok and there’s was of course a bunch of edits. Some clips in those edits tho he seemed young like 14/15 so I was afraid of that. But I brushed it off and ignored it but i felt attraction to those clips so I was anxious and went and searched up the age the actor was in those clips and it said 14/15 and I was grossed out like I’m pretty sure I said “oh eww” so I went back to those edits but it still felt like I was attracted to those clips but like i wasn’t taking it serious you know and I kept testing and checking and searching up the age and it still felt like I was attracted to him in those clips he would’ve been 14/15. But like I said for some reason I didn’t take any of this seriously. Like I just told myself something like “it’s just a old Disney channel crush who cares it’s not that big of a deal” and like I had seen people in those comment sections of Jack brewer edits you know who found him attractive when they were younger acting like “yea little me had taste” or just like I guess skimping over him? But to me i was like “well he was their childhood crush so I guess it’s not that big of a deal.” Anyways after that I just didn’t take the attraction seriously so I just clicked off tik tok. I wanted to go with my mom and brothers to their basketball practice so I could be calm and not panic but my brothers didn’t want me to so I stayed home. While at home while about to take a shower I began to panic and reflect on what I’d done earlier about Jack brewer. I panicked and began to cry and started getting mad at myself like “what’s wrong with you” “why didn’t you take it seriously” “Does this mean I am most definitely a pedo and don’t have POCD.” I can’t really remember what happened after but I think I tried calming down by saying “it’s just a Disney channel crush” but at the same time I’m like “that dosent matter it’s a real person.” After all this I went to school and yada yada yada but the more I thought about it it felt like that situation reassured me that all the POCD intrusive thoughts and feelings are fake. It’s so weird like it confirmed to me that I was ok. So after that I felt ok you know because it didn’t feel real. And after a while like a few weeks I went and searched jack brewer tik toks to check and I felt nothing. Like even right now because I just recently went and checked I feel no attraction to those clips of 14/15 year old Jack brewer that I felt or thought I felt to. But now I just feel weird because how can attraction like that just change? Am I pedo? Was I overthinking and that attraction was never real? Please someone help