u/Careful-Ordinary2337

The word that I saw last Wednesday

A word that is now making me incapable for things which i thought I can do it easily

That word made me deal with my reality

I recently appeared for my may 26 ca inter exam

I knew in the back of my mind that I wouldn't be able to clear ... I had this thing of always underestimating me .. that m not that capable but today i turn around n look things ... If i haven't had this mind set i would have cleared ... Most of my classmate did clear they r now enjoying their lives with their parent's being proud of them

I know circumstances were too shitty for me

My parents they argued almost all time

I missed 1000 outings

N when my chance comes for vacation i do nothing but sit at home because something negative just shows up

But then fine I had this one motivation for clearing this exam n living my life

It gave me harsh reality check I wasn't left behind just by few marks but almost failing in every subject

Had I not given my best

Had I always been so incapable

Had i always been so dumb

My parents look me with disappointment

The daughter they used to flex

Is now a burden

My exam attempt is approaching n I m doing nothing... A week pass away scrolling through people's first attempt post

I need to somehow gather courage n show that yes I did the hardwork... N yes even I can pass