Any other teenagers going into nursing at Cyfair who wanna connect? I’m looking for a study buddy or people who wanna help each other out/be friends :) just send a message and lmk if you’re interested!! Im starting in June
i had my first therapy session today!
anyways, i (17F) met this guy (38M) and we casually dated for a bit. before you ask, yes it’s legal in my state. he drove me around in his truck once, we went out to eat, and i’ve been over to his house twice. he was my first time two and a half months ago but we’ve only gotten intimate twice, including yesterday afternoon. it was great and it felt good. very affectionate. forehead to forehead, lots of neck kissing, all that. sigh.
he always kissed me. he’s very affectionate and understanding as a whole, not pushy or anything like that. he was okay whether or not we had sex, we just liked each other’s company. we just cuddled and watched something nice a few times. he made me coffee and he’d do this thing where we’d rest against each other and he’d gently rub circles on my arm with his thumb. he made me feel special whenever we were together. we’re pretty good together and he said he’d date me if we were compatible. the reason we’re incompatible is because he wants to get married and have kids sooner than later and i want later.
i got sexually assaulted around 8 years old by a guy double my age at the time. my therapist told me what happened to me as a child was happening to me again. as a child, i felt powerless when i got assaulted by a guy double my age but apparently i’ve used this recent relationship to feel powerful. which is not good because i can pour that energy elsewhere and i know ill regret ever being with him in the long run.
i ended things with him this morning and he was more relaxed because he knew we’d have to end things eventually since we were incompatible. he said, and i quote, “I wish you the best of luck in the future, that you stay in good health and continue to grow stronger. Live a happy life… Be well 😊” I haven’t stopped crying all day. I miss him and I really hope I can get over him soon.
not even hungry anymore but i made a stew with cabbage, lentils, sausage, and kale.