What made you feel like YOU again?
Thursday is my 42nd birthday and I have never NOT wanted to celebrate a day more in my entire life. Even though I have court that day, I decided last week that I was going to take the day off and do things that only I wanted to do…and by my freaking SELF. (I’m going to go for a run, get my free coffee, take myself to lunch, read, and I’m capping it all off by going to a smash room to get out all of the inner rage!!!)
My mom asked me what I wanted for my birthday and I literally replied “To feel like myself again 😓”. I can’t stand anyone or anything. I don’t want to be around anyone. The only time I’m happy anymore is if I’m at home alone with a clean house. I truly have an amazing husband who I love very much, but some days, I couldn’t care less if I ever saw him again. We’re also empty nesters except for two older dogs who I feel the same way about.
I have a Mirena IUD. My GYN started me on progesterone 2 months ago and initially it helped with sleep, which made the other things more bearable. I’m not waking up at 3 am anymore but I’m waking before my alarm and cannot go back to sleep or sleep in to save my life. 😭 I graduated with my master’s degree last year and thought I would be able to sleep and my body pulled the biggest Uno reverse ever. 😭😭😭
This is just so cruel that we have to go through this and honestly a miracle that most of us don’t end up in jail cells. 🤬 I’m so freaking angry all of the time.
I will be making a follow up appt with my GYN and hoping we can make some other adjustments. I just want to feel like me again. What did it for you?