u/Careless-Actuary6641

recently i js feel rlly fed up. i keep on having bad mood swings where i feel depressed/suicidal then the next minute ill be being silly and yapping on abt shi and giggling my ahh off.

SCHOOL: I keep on getting told off for the very MINIMAL eyeliner i wear to schl and i keep on having to wipe it off which rlly pmo, because there's girls in my year lowk looking like donald trump doppelgangers or whatever with 50 layers of fake tan on and i never see them being told off for it? even though it's much more extreme than one lil black line under each of my eyes 🫩. Like in registration i was told to go to the 'care place' typa room in the school (mostly nobody in there acc gives a fuck abt any of the students trust) but i knew the teachers there would be all yk, like 'you know you aren't meant to wear heavy eye makeup' so i js went to the toilets instead and tried to wipe it off with wet tissue (🥲). when i came back to registration the teacher again told me to go back so i went to the toilets again and atp i was getting pihd off. then when i came out the toielts i was gonna go to the first lesson but there was a different mood and i didn't feel like going to class so i went to go sit in the care place typa thing. none of the teachers there objected to me being there when i was sat down btw. so i was there for like a few minutes slowly cheering up abd writing song lyrics :3 when my fuckahh registration teachers 'finds' me comes upto me and starts saying shi like 'what are you doing here?' 'i've sent you down here twice and you still haven't taken the makeup off' 'i'm not spending the whole time chasing after you'. when she asked why i was here i was like 'i kind of felt sick' bc idfk what to say and she was like 'you kind of felt sick?' and started going on. so then i was like 'i did take off the makeup' (didn't take off my mascara bc no other teacher has ever had an issue with it before' and she was like 'have you looked in a mirror?' and carried on saying bitchass shi abd atp i was upset again. she said who said you could sit in here? and i was like 'nobody' and she was like 'nobody. so you're skiving' or whatever. she literally took me to first lesson when i was obv upset. so i spent that lesson sat next to two of my friends sort of crying and they didn't even say anythibg to me 😛😍 then i got pulled out by another one of the teachers and i had to wipe off more makeup so i did and she gave me a detention bc technically i had been 'skiving'. also i have three detentions so uh yay ig 😛. and funnily enough its 'mental health week' at school too 🥲💔

I LOWK FEEL LIKE A POSER 😀💔: i love the y2k emo style and tons of emo stuff rlly but some ppl in goth subreddits or whatever are saying shi like people who buy from shein and temu are 'posers' and some of my clothes are lowk from temu (ik it's bad) so now ive been feeling bad bc omg im a mfing poser then?? but i love emo stuff. And the ppl saying this always come across as thinking theyre superior and better than everyone else and calling ppl posers just annoys me sm, it's like i said, they act as if they're superior 🫩🫩. i know fast fashion is bad and unethical but the clothes they sell still look alt/emo etc. so they (ppl who shop there) aren't rlly poser bc they're dressing alt?? its so pathetic like why can't ppl just wear what they want ffs? 🥲

the only things that make me happy atm are being around my friends (:D) listening to music and other stuff but im worried i have some sort of mental health condition bc my mood swings are always rlly extreme and i hate it 💔💔 i know this post lowk seems like an angsty lil emo going on about only somewhat infuriating typa shi but this shi's been getting to me a lot :33 💔

Three cheers inspired roblox avatar 🥹

some sort of vent/rant thing :/

thought i'd lowkirkuinely share my outfit tday 😛

Where can i find band tees ??