Methadone withdrawal
Hi so i am currently on 145 mg of methadone and get 27 take homes. I’m also in chronic pain and i the last maybe 4 months have been misusing my methadone like i’ll take extra on days my pain is really bad mind you this is how my addiction started and it was to methadone as i was on methadone for pain i would take one extra pill then one became two and two became three and three became ten. Anyway back then i would run out of the methadone pills and go through withdrawal which was the worst experience i ever had. Fast forward to now i’ve been clean for 8 years my pains getting worse and worse so im taking a little out of each bottle then a little more extra and this month i got a call back and im 8 bottles short. i should have ten left i have 2 so i tell the nurse im on vacation and i called and told the front desk, ive been there for four years never had a dirty urine it failed a callback they believe me tell me to come in when i’m home. So here i am what the fuck am i going to do i’m going to have to skip those 8 days im short and take my lumps with the withdrawals. Yesterday was my 8th day im going in this morning , i skipped those 8 days and didn’t have one withdrawal symptom, well i was in god awful pain but i have chronic pain that’s expected. no anxiety, no insomnia slept every night except last night its 330am im awake i couldn’t sleep. No stomach issues no diarrhea no restless legs..what is going on? Does anyone know why i made it through these 8 days no methadone not one issue i coasted through them.. did have cravings though but sheer willpower i did it. I was thinking yesterday that hy go back to the clinic why not just stay off…then i remembered PAWS and the 6months of no sleep for the first week and then the next 6 months if i slept 2 hours a night i was lucky..i was hallucinating from no sleep and the anxiety had me almost suicidal so that slapped that idea out of my mind, but does anyone know why i didn’t get sick? And when i go in im going to be honest with them. My recovery isnt real if i lie.