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I was raised in an infernalist Christian household and it did immense damage, especially with me being queer, and having OCD, leading to religious trauma. I don't think I ever loved God, how can you love someone when you are being told he will condemn you to eternal damnation if you don't? I wanted to, because I was scared, and I'm still scared. I've been a hopeful universalist for awhile now, and it's had an interesting effect.

I think I have gotten a bit better with believing it, and therefore my mind is trying to now accept God as truly loving and not someone waiting to condemn me every time I mess up. But at the same time I find I want to pray and engage with the bible even less. I have ADHD so focusing on stuff that's not immediately interesting is very hard, but without the fear motivator, and with how much of it can still be triggering for me, it's gotten a lot harder. That engagement was something required, never something enjoyed. A lot of verses send me into an OCD spiral that I've been trying to work on for years. It's a hard illness to live with.

I don't know how to make myself love God, I want to, I want to have this sense of safety and security that God really loves me and wants to spend time with me as I am, but my heart just can't quite get that after so much harm for so long. Any advice would be appreciated.

Is there any word on being able to import choices in sequels?

If you're a fan of Pathologic 2 and 3 the 30 day "time limit" doesn't worry you at all

Is it just me or is she implying the stuff Colleen did is not that serious?

Trying to love God in the wake of infernalist trauma.