I lost my poodle of 8 years yesterday.
I don’t know what to do anymore, Emmie meant everything to me. she was with me through my worst and now she’s just gone. a week or so ago she stopped eating and was throwing up a lot, me and my parents tried everything. the day before she died we took her to the vet and they said she seemed fine, but after some bloodwork it turned out she had Addisons disease, they gave her some anti-nausea pills and told us to feed her baby food. we tried to but she just wouldn’t eat all of it so we decided that we’d try again tomorrow. but in the middle of the night she went into shock and just collapsed onto the floor and never woke up. i just don’t know how to go on without her, all I can think about is how I’ll never hear the clicking of her nails against the hardwood as she runs over to me, and I’ll never get to scratch behind her ears any more and then have her lick my fingers, I’ll never get to see her go out during winter and see her play in the snow, or see her cuddle bumble again, or see her under the japanese maple on a hot summer day, i wont be able to see her with every pillow in the house because she loved laying on pillows and watching out the window as cars drove by. I just wish I did more to help her, but now all I can do wish.