u/CaterpillarOver2760

This is soooo embarrassing and I really don’t know how to go about doing this, but I’ll do the best I can to explain my situation.
I’ve been in an “on&off” relationship with a narcissist for the past almost 9 years. The first few years when he would just run off&ghost me I always had money saved up in the bank&had a couple of credit cards to fall back on if needed and I was always lucky enough to find some sort of job fairly quickly. Which every time we “got back together”, he would make me quit that job (yes, stupid I know), but he travels a lot for his job (he’s self employed and does very well for himself) and wanted me to be able to travel with him. When we were “on” he always made sure my bills were paid&usually made sure I had a little money in my pocket. This last “go around” we had been together for about 5 years, so I guess I let myself get a little too comfortable and dependent on him. He was paying my bills except for my credit cards, so now my credit is completely trashed&I can’t get ANY type of credit cards/loans. We had been looking at houses&everything&then things started changing. Come to find out he met someone else&is acting like I don’t exist. He literally left me with nothing&it’s been over a month&I have tried to find a job to no avail. I had a Door Dash Dasher (driver) account, but my account got suspended a couple of years ago over a driving charge, which won’t fall off until late October 2026. I know this isn’t “allowed”, but I had signed HIM up to be a Dasher&was using his account so I could make a little money here&there. Well DD wants you to do “face verification” from time to time&it popped up on me a little over a week ago, so now I can’t do DD on his account bc he has just completely ghosted me like I don’t exist.
I’m 46(F) with a 17 yr old and 3 cats inside&a I also feed a couple stray cats outside. I have NOONE to turn to for help&am in a really bad spot. My truck payment is a couple months behind, my insurance got canceled, I live in an apartment and got my “overages” and they want them paid within 5 days of receiving the “notice” now.
I honestly just don’t know what to do. My gas light is on and I have maybe $3 to my name.
I need to get my truck payments made&get some insurance&get my overages paid. My cats need food&litter, etc.
I live in a small town with no good jobs, no public transportation, etc. and not very many resources.
If anyone could help with ANYTHING I would be very grateful. I have helped strangers in the past when I was in a better situation, so I’m hoping for some “good karma” to come back to me.
PLEASE no negative responses.

I don’t have Cash App or PayPal.
I only have Apple Pay or Chime.
Oh also have a Skrill account that I THINK I can receive money on.

I guess all options would show my personal info, but 🤷‍♀️
It is what it is I guess.

I also made a “wishlist” on Amazon for cat food, litter, and a couple personal hygiene items.
If you can’t help please just move on. I really don’t need the negativity right now.

Thank you to whoever can help. And to whomever took the time to read all of this.
Sorry it’s so long. I tried to shorten it the best I could.

My Chime is $Bethsheree79
Skrill account is bethsheree79@gmail.com
Apple Pay is bethsheree1979@gmail.com

Amazon Wishlist is

https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/1WBQ3VQZJ7ZX8?ref\_=wl\_share

(I’ve never done 1 of these before, so hopefully I done it correctly)

I’ll add more pics in comments.