u/CecyPau

Hi. My bday is in three days and it is the first one I have since my baby left.

I feel my heart shredded. I don't know how to live a life apart from my Puchito. I miss him everyday. He and his brother literally saved my life and I'm becoming older thanks to them. To celebrate this life without one of the loves of my life makes no sense at all.

Te extraño, Gordito. Mi Puchito Bb. Donde quiera que estés, tu mami te manda muchos besos. Te amo por siempre.

Tomorrow I'm celebrating my birthday. I invited "my friends" to go and celebrate and just 2 of them said yes. The other ones didn't even care to answer.

It would be the same sh as always if it not were the case that in the last 5 days 3 of these "friends" also celebrated their birthdays and they invited the same group of friends and most of them did reply and went to their celebrations, in fact.

I feel like I'm just a liability for everyone and that's why they don't give a f and don't even try to be polite in saying they can't come. I feel like sh.

Yesterday I was planning on canceling all over. But today even the fact of rejecting the company of these 2 girlfriends made me feel such fear of losing them too, you know.

Idk... I feel like I hafta change of group of friends. What is the case of considering someone a "friend" if they continuously lack of empathy for your feelings.