I watched her wither away.

It was few long years. She was so independent and stubborn that she fought me taking over care to the last she could stand to.

Triple negative breast cancer.

Two rounds of chemo.

No response to chemo.

Neuropathy from the chemo... that didn't help... she suffered.

Mastectomy.

They did their best to not damage her use of her left arm, but it did. She could no longer put on regular shirts because of the limited range... it hurt... she suffered.

Radiation.

A break for other health treatments... but... it was there again already.

In her lung.

It grew. She suffered...

She did her best to suffer quietly at times. At others she would fight us over wanting more and more meds, which we could only give her so much, because they were only refilled every so often, and beg the nurses to adjust her meds when they came.

I watched her lose her ability to keep track of things. I watched her lose her ability to walk on her own. I watched her stop eating. I watched her stop being able to sit up. I watched her stop being able to swallow her meds. I watched her die...

I remember putting lotion on her arm, realizing how thin she had gotten, and keeping a straight face till I got to my room to cry.

It's been a few weeks. I do okay most of the time. Today is not one of those days. I miss my Mom.

Sorry, I don't know why I'm posting. To vent into the air since I can't just scream I guess.

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u/CelestialHellebore — 2 days ago
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Drawing three chibi!

Looking to draw Chibis!

Hello there~

I'm looking for 3 OCs to draw! Please be advised, I would like there to be some difference in these OC submissions.

I will not draw NSFW, anthros (ears/tails/horns/wings/claws are okay, but I do not wish to draw animal faces or legs/arms), or overly complicated OC (because these are chibi they will be simplified.

Category split:
- One game avatar.
- One character that is fully drawn by your own hands.
- One character from a mood board.

I do NOT want:
- Text only descriptions. Words like bright, tall, long etc are relative and mean little to me without examples.
- Heavily mecha or animal characters.
- NSFW in form of nudity. Scars or horror is OK.

Gender does not matter.

It could be a few days before I post back, life is busy and stressful right now. I will not be picking who to draw today, maybe tomorrow.

These may end up being only sketches. Only lineart. Only flats. Or Fully colored. I make no promises.

What to post:
Your character.
Which # pose.
Why this pose fits your character.
Your favorite thing about space.
Failure to have all these things will make you ineligible.

I hope you have a great day! It is way too hot here right now. Bleh!

u/CelestialHellebore — 3 days ago

Please draw my OC! Mira, pokemon trainer!

Hi there, thank you for looking.

Mira is my self... character? Trainer. I'm always disappointed that the trainers usually look like kids and never have long hair in the games. I decided to sketch up my self as a trainer!

Info?
Long dark brown hair, reddish tinted, to just past her butt.
Dark grey-ish blue eyes with a golden inner ring (central heterochromia)
Clothes are generally black or dark dark grey.
Zippie and Zappie are my Jolteons, I usually have one of the two in every game, they are not shiny.
I prefer moonballs, but my boys are usually the first eevee I catch so they are usually in normal Pokeballs lol.
Any flowing skirt like dress will do, if you're not comfortable with the low cut or short skirt it's okay to alter it. :)
Fishnet, sheer, or no tights are all fine!
Heels, but usually fairly low, of any sort are okay too!

If you can't draw Jolteons (I can't) it's fine to leave them out!
If you're interested in other pokemon I keep to include instead I like Milotic, Mimikyu, Roaring Moon, Slither Wing, Umbreon (shiny), banette. And a ton of others. I could chatter about my babies and their names all day.

Do you have a pokemon trainer OC or a favorite Pokemon? I would love to see and hear about them!

Included a sprite of her I tried to make, but it's been ages since I made pixel art. Whew. Tough!

u/CelestialHellebore — 19 days ago

[RF] Ciel, Cyberpunk Air Genasi Artificer for u/thatoneaccounte

OP: https://www.reddit.com/r/characterdrawing/comments/1tz0sfs/lfa_ciel_cyberpunk_air_genasi_artificer/

u/thatoneaccounte

I included the lineart by itself because the character has such dark clothes I wanted the background to be dark, but it might be too dark for some to see. My idea was that she was sitting on an iron beam high above a city, but also I'm too tired for all that right now. I hope it's satisfactory all the same. Sorry the pose is a little weird, I got in over my head there. LOL.

Thank you for looking!

Oh my god reddit compression destroyed the colored version.

u/CelestialHellebore — 23 days ago

Anatomy help, please. :)

Sorry, I don't have a reference this is just from my brain so I need to pick someone else's brain to help fix whatever is going on here. Lmao. Red lines are welcome. Thank you for your time :) Don't mind the mangled hand over the head, I haven't decided how I want to pose it yet. The face and lifted shoulder/arm are whats messing me up the most!

u/CelestialHellebore — 24 days ago