u/Certain-Parsnip-5129

I dont know how to love myself. im too angry for religion and too kind for a girlfriend. i watch mortal kombat 11 and 1 fatalities targeted on shang tsung and homelander and doom eternal glory kills when i am mad. i lost my girlfriend who i promised to be with forever. i literally wanted to marry her. i miss her so much. i am so angry that i masturbate and orgasm almost every other day to avoid getting too mad because semen retention causes testosterone and testosterone is anger. i had a homophobic phase for a couple of years but it healed. i hate myself. i literally have all the deadly sins at least once in my life except pride. i go on walks literally every single day and that helps a little bit i guess. i read books and watch movies and in two weeks im starting a program that will let me go to the gym every single day so i can stop being a bum. im really sorry for anyone who has to endure my story.