Am I able to vent here??
I honestly just needed to vent for a second because yesterday was one of those days where I felt really alone and out of place. I was sitting in class then after, shafer hall by myself eating a tv dinner and some popcorn and I overheard during both occasions two people talking about the advantages they have in college and how they can just use their parents’ cards to buy whatever they need or want. Im not judging them because everybody has a different situation, but hearing that while I was sitting there made me really aware of how different my circumstances are. Im here trying to figure everything out on my own, and neither of my parents went to college, so I don’t really have that kind of financial or educational safety net to fall back on.
Right now I’m literally surviving off food stamps, trying to stretch whatever I have and sometimes I barely have anything I can even warm up and bring with me during my free block. I have 43 cents in my bank account, and I still had to get up and go to class and pretend everything was okay. I’m starting my part time work- study job soon and trying to balance school with everything else bc im determined to build something better for myself and my daughter, but sometimes it gets really lonely watching other people have advantages that I’ve never had. I’m not saying this because I expect anyone to fix it for me. I just needed somewhere to be honest about how hard it felt yesterday bc for a moment I really felt like I didn’t belong here.