u/CharliePlays_13

I 28 and my wife 28 have jumped the first hurdle again. 3 days ago we saw those faint 2 lines on a pregnancy test. When we first saw them we burst into tears from excitement. It worked!!. But then the reminder we've been here before crept in. We lost our son back in January and now that the initial shock has settled here are a few things I cannot get out of my head;

I feel like I'm replacing Theodore his due date was in August and we're already expecting our new little one.

What if we lose her too how can I navigate that caliber of grief again.

How can I best support my wife knowing there is a chance this may happen again and I never want to see her hurt the way she did last time.

I'm finding myself hyper vigilant about everything she's feeling almost to a fault.

Can I allow myself to love this baby, sing to her, read to her knowing there is a chance she may not make it.

I have a therapy appointment for next week to get the help I need in navigating these feelings but I wanted to see if any other people have experienced similar feelings. I guess I just want to know I'm not alone in this.

I 28 trans man and my wife 28 cis female have jumped the first hurdle again. 3 days ago we saw those faint 2 lines on a pregnancy test. When we first saw them we burst into tears from excitement. It worked!!. But then the reminder we've been here before crept in. We lost our son back in January and now that the initial shock has settled here are a few things I cannot get out of my head;

I feel like I'm replacing Theodore his due date was in August and we're already expecting our new little one.

What if we lose her too how can I navigate that caliber of grief again.

How can I best support my wife knowing there is a chance this may happen again and I never want to see her hurt the way she did last time.

I'm finding myself hyper vigilant about everything she's feeling almost to a fault.

Can I allow myself to love this baby, sing to her, read to her knowing there is a chance she may not make it.

Am I at fault for it not working because we can't try as often as we like because obviously my genitalia does not allow that.

I have a therapy appointment for next week to get the help I need in navigating these feelings but I wanted to see if any other people have experienced similar feelings. I guess I just want to know I'm not alone in this.