HOW DO I DEAL WITH CONSTANT DOUBTS?
Im 20f, in a really loving relationship with my boyfriend. I got diagnosed with ocd 3 months back. Even before the diagnosis i had irrational doubts about or relationship.
Constant doubts include:
- Do i even love him anymore?
- I mightve cheated on him if i thought about any other person
- I do not get happy feeling or butterflies, it might mean that i dont love him
- I want to break up just because.
- Im not attracted to him anymore
These feelings come out of nowhere. And STAY, no matter how much i expose myself to them, they stay. I am really tired of this now. I have been really distant from my partner bcz of this, im talking about the same things again and again, i have almost 0 interest in any intimacy, i have been really socially isolated. It is tough letting him in. But it all feels so real that it makes me feel like im betraying him and that i should break up. But i cannot stand the thought of breaking up, i genuinely love him. But sometimes i feel like i dont. IT IS SO HOT AND COLD. Im really tired of feeling this way. I dont know what to do anymore. He feels like im disgusted by him, in reality im not and i do not want to make him feel this way.