u/Cheap_Painting_8714

Hi im sorry I dont know why im even posting this but I dont know what to do or think I dont know if its even that serious but I just feel like my mental health is getting worse every week and I feel like my eating problems are coming back. Like I dont think I ever fully recovered from it, its just I have marching band and usually start to eat around the seasons beginning because I play tuba and dont want to pass out with that on me but lately I just dont care and I feel like its getting bad again. Every time I try to eat I just feel sick and nauseous I just want to be able to eat normally but something in my mind keeps telling me to go back to the way I used to be and I feel like im slowly listening. My family doesnt know and only 3 people know about it maybe but they dont really care and I dont think they take it seriously. I just dont know what to do no matter how much I eat i get sick, theres nobody in my life trying to help me, please how can I stop this feeling im just constantly miserable and I always have a stomach ache and feel light headed and I just cry over any food because its all so gross and everything is wrong

Most of us have seen videos about people hating band camp, and I get it. Band camp sucks when you have to listen to people complaining about every little thing. But I get it. Its early in the morning, we're all tired and sweating, but honestly the more ive done marching band, the more ive realized that its really not that bad and one of my favorite times of the season..yes, its hot, yes its painful, but when its over? I always realize how much fun ive had. I always make memories at band camp, new friends, I get to teach the first years things and feel useful. I used to just use it to get away from home but now I go because I want to be a good band member. I still dread going in, but im always happy leaving, thinking if the things we got done, the new music we're gonna work on next, new things we're gonna add, and how im closer to my last day of band with every practice. I think band camp is overhated, and I hope we can all have a good time this season :)