u/Cheesyfries37

Im currently in the process of getting tested for autism, im one test away from a diagnosis and my therapist is super sure i have it

So my dad made us switch from Google Photos to apple photos so i was downloading photos from around 2023 and i decided to check my storage and it was almost full wich freaked me out because i dont even know and from that point on everything started slowly feeling more and more weird
I had to take my headphones of because the music was freaking me out and i had the big light on and my room was a mess and i slowly started panicking more and more till i started feeling that same terrible gut feeling i had all the time during 2021-2023 and from that point on i was hyperventilating and crying because nothing felt real and it was really scaring the shit out of me and my hands looked weird, my room had this weird orange tint to it, everything was wayyy too quiet and i didn’t recognize myself in the mirror plus just that terrible feeling that something really big was gonna happen the entire time
And my eye was twitching like crazy the entire time and i only managed to calm down after like an hour
Nothing felt real either and it still feels kinda fake but not really?? I have no idea how to describe this

I have no idea what just happened all i know is that it was terrifying

So i was talking with my best friend and she mentioned how our friend (lets call her kiwi) is “lying” to us

For context kiwi said she recently got kicked out of her home after she had a fight with her mother and yesterday she told me how she’s probably going to a group home for teens because of that with her mom and since her mom has been hitting her for a while and she filed a police report against her for said abuse and how her little sister is gonna go to her father whos probably gonna get full custody

If im being honest im glad if shes gonna get out of there because first i do believe shes getting hit and im pretty sure her and her sister are getting neglected too

My friend then started shit talking kiwi about how shes lying for attention and how her mother would never hit her because she “knows” her and she also “knows” that kiwi lies all the time and then said how she would love to punch kiwi in the face for “doing these terrible things to her mother”
But i KNOW damn well that kiwi would never sit for like 4 hours in the police station if she was just actually lying for attention

This whole thing is just her victim blaming kiwi and saying shes being dramatic and how her mother never did anything wrong so i told my friend that she doesn’t know whats going on in their home and just because she met her mother once or twice doesn’t mean that shes nice to her daughters and since kiwi is pretty much allowed to do what ever substance or drug she wants without her mother caring all that much just tells me her mother doesn’t actually give a fuck
And now me and my best friend are fighting because I shouldn’t believe kiwi and shes just lying and im falling right for it

One of my main characters is gonna get high every now and then but i have never smoked weed before and i dont wanna write down absolute bullshit😭😭

Edit: all these replies really make me wanna try it but my mom would kill me if i do it while still under her roof lmao