u/ChemicalStatus8894

I am sharing this because yo subreddit ma girls haru hunu hunccha so bujhnu hunchha hola bhanera I am sharing this post. It might be inappropriate or triggering to some people but I have to let it out. Ma (21F) when I was 15 got groomed by a 23 year old. Tyo manche lied to me about his age and got together with me and then later when I stopped talking to him he uploaded hamro “stuffs” online. Aaile samma ni circulate bhairaheko chha in whatever websites,telegram,WhatsApp groups and it hurts me everyday. Maile already cyber bureau ma gayera case file garisake but enough proof chhaina ki he was the one who uploaded it because apparently usko excuse was he lost his phone and that’s how it got leaked. 3 years+ bhaisakyo mero mental health decline bhako and whenever I try to move on and forget this incident ek na arko way bata malai pachhyaudai aaucha. Asti bharkhar one of my good friends sent me ss tyo incident related and asked if it was me and I was shocked and every progress I made came crashing down. I don’t blame her kina ki she was looking out for me and I am grateful to have her. After my parents found out I got blamed and beaten by my father. In their eyes I had no guilt and everything was my fault and I do agree I should’ve said no I should’ve made better choices and I have accepted my mistakes. I have no one by my side ekklo chhu na yo kura kasailai bhanna sakchu na ta aafai kei garna sakchu. I wake up everyday expecting everything to be nothing but just a bad dream but sadly I have to face the reality. Kaile kai bhagwan sanga ridiculous wish magirako hunchu to make me time travel to that particular day and stop myself from meeting that person. I hope no girl ever has to go through what I went through. Please be careful about who you trust. I’ve lost my will to live and build a future. K socheko thiye life k bhaidiyo.. maile mero galti haru manisake I take all the blame for everything so I hope life becomes a little gentle towards me…

I(21F) was groomed by a 23 year old when I was 15 and later he posted our intimate stuffs online and till this day it is still surfacing in illegal telegrams/discord/whatsapp groups. I've filed a case against him in the cyber bureau but they said they have no proof that he was the one who uploaded it cause apparently his excuse was he lost his phone and that's how it got leaked so there has been zero progress. Alot of drama unfolded with my parents after that incident and I got beaten up by my father and got blamed for everything. I have tried many times to move on from this situation but every time it comes back to haunt me one way or the other. Last night one of my good friend sent me a picture related to that incident and asked if it was me and every progress I made so far to move on and forget everything just came crashing down. I do not blame her because I know she asked only because she was worried about me but here I am, back at the bottom of the pit. Everyday I keep on wishing for everything to be just a bad dream because I feel so guilty for hurting the people that love me specially my parents. I feel like I cannot share what I am feeling now to anyone because at the end of the day I am the one who gets judged. Sometimes I find myself making ridiculous prayers to god about making me time travel to that particular day so I could stop myself from meeting that person. I have lost all hope and I have no one by my side or even someone I can reach out for support or to maybe just share how I am feeling right now so I am writing this here. I have accepted my mistakes and my actions so I hope life becomes be a bit gentle towards me...