u/CherrEBlossom

I barely started 5mg been taking it for 20 days. Prior weed would make me feel relaxed. Now when I do the same amount I end up gagging (no nausea just feeling like I’m going to barf) and I get lots of anxiety and weird body feelings I haven’t felt before. I’ve had the racingheart beat and anxiety but this is different. I don’t feel how fast my heart is beating, my sides of my body felt like I was getting zapped by static electricity and I have to lay down or else I keep feeling sick. Might this change or? Other than the meds I haven’t changed anything else that I’ve done with taking weed

I’m in a relationship. It’s not committed or living together. I’m 31. He wants to be a mix of swinger and poly. I used to be okay and encouraging and wanting it. I still think that as I am, a lifestyle like that could work out with a partner who is respectful of boundaries and triggers as I would be, and able to cherish and not take away from the other but add. I spend every weekend with my partner, they give me all the attention and kisses and time and vulnerability when we’re together, but he’s hidden things in the past and he himself seems to be very insecure and I’m starting to wondering if he’s with me out of unhealthy attachment and fear of abandonment as opposed to actually desiring and loving me as a partner. He flirts with other women but I don’t get the same desire. I know a lot is to do with me and my own beliefs too and I’m trying to balance being me, changing what I want to change, keeping myself emotionally safe while in this strange relationship. Please reach out if you feel you have capacity to chat about this and maybe let’s be friends and support each other through whatever is happening. Thank you.