u/ChonkyCatOwner

I lost my dad sudden and without warning two weeks ago. I have been trying so hard but today I am really struggling. I spoke to the council today and I am waiting to hear back about if I'm going to be able to stay here. I spoke to citizens advise and shelter and both said until I have heard back from the council they cant do anything. They also mentioned to inform universal credit about the changes that have happened but I couldn't get through to them.

I'm struggling to do all thats required of me. I miss my dad and part of me is just refusing to accept he's gone it hurts so bad. Almost like I'm delusional.

I am anxious about whats going to happen in the future. Im anxious that I cant accept that hes gone. Im anxious that my sister is under so much pressure and I'm such a burden. I just want to crawl into a ball and sob like a child wanting their father but what good will that do.

I'm struggling to cope. I dont know what else I can do.

Ive posted here a bit but long story short my father passed away suddenly and he was my support. With that said I need to inform the council soon regarding his death as we now have the death certificate seeing as we live in a council house that my dad rented. My name was not on with him.

I do not know what to say to them other than theres been a lot that we have had to do and continue to do. I'd like to be able to stay here for now but theres a few problems:

1. There's damp. My dad were fighting the council for over 4 years to get this sorted and they still haven't fixed it which means

2. I cant redecorate until the damp is resolved which will make living here harder due to:

3. The memories, good and bad if I cant change anything in time I dont know if I'll be able to move on if everything is a reminder of him.

But all these issues are irrelevant if they won't let me stay and as everyone has told me I should try and stay here as its a place I'm used to I know where things are (shops ect ect) but I dont know if they will. Any advice is much appreciated.

I just wanted to post a update on my ongoing situation with the sudden loss of my father.

We got a cause of death "pulmonary something or other (sorry i can't remember)" effectively he had a heart attack in his sleep. We were told that there was nothing we could of done. But I question now is if I got him to slow down take a break could he of been here still?

We also got his death certificate now and it feels surreal that its now "official". We need to now reach out to the council to see if I can stay here and various services (water, gas,electricity).

I'm still waiting for support to be sorted via my social worker which could take "weeks" if I understood things. Which concerns me because my sister could be returning to work on Monday.

I'm no longer crying all the time, just most of the time. I see things of his or have a sudden memory and I break down. I'm overly anxious and I'm finding myself just easily angered.

I wear his watch all the time and even sleep in it as it feels like he's holding my wrist like he did when I was anxious.

Im still going through all his things with my sister which is hard as theres just so much and because it feels wrong going through his things.

I still expect a call or for him to walk through the door. The cats are depressed and get overly excited by hearing the door and constantly are looking out for him. It breaks my heart but I'm doing my best for them.

I think I am doing everything "right" but nothing feels real to me at the moment. Like I'm in a dream or time is going faster than what I can keep up with.

But thats all I can say right now that I can think of.

I dont know if this is allowed but five days ago I lost my father suddenly in his sleep. It has not been easy it still is not easy and I miss him terribly. A few days after he passed it was his birthday and this Sunday will be fathers day (i live in the uk). We still have no answers on what happened as its been delayed twice now.

Things keep going on in my head I still feel overwhelmed and I keep crying. But I still need to continue for the sake of my cats and my sister and him. I need to contact the council which I'm scared to do as my name was not on the lease so they may want me out ASAP. I need to take over the bills I need to go shopping for myself now which I've never done i have a social worker trying to find me help which I may end up having to pay myself for what ever reason. I still dont know if staying here will be good for me long term. We're trying to get all his accounts sorted, find his will all sorts needs doing.

On top of that I noticed today that in 12 years since reuniting with my father (due to other family drama) this is the longest I've been away from him. And it fucking hurts. I miss him so much but I need to continue for the sake of my sister and my cats but its hard.

As for everyone who reached out and responded to me on that horrible day I say with the most sincerity I can - thank you all.

I'm still processing everything i came down this morning and found him sleeping. I tried to wake him, he didnt. I called a ambulance i called my sister and now i dont know what to do. My head is swimming. He was my father he took care of me and helped me a lot with things what on earth do I do? I have so many questions like:

How do I go about his funeral? How do I contact everyone who knew him Why did this happen What happens to me and the cats now hes gone? How do I even start looking for support Why did this happen Why didnt I tell him enough that I loved him I should of. Could I of prevented this

I'm so overwhelmed and scared and I just cant cry anymore. I feel like I've been hit by a flashbang.

I also lived with him so now I dont know how long I can stay here or how to go about trying to get support.