the one that got away..
hi, male, 23. So, it’s been 2 years since my ex and I broke up. She was my second ex, I had 2 girlfriends. And I’ve been in the dating scene after a month we broke up thinking that maybe someone will help me heal.
Fast forward to this day, the more I date people, the more the feeling of missing you grows. I took for granted how I felt safe around you, how IT REALLY FEELS so right, just so right to simply be with you.
I love how calm when we talk, how we take our time, how we make fun of each other. The amount of respect, and how we respect each other’s boundaries. I miss how we enjoy the simple things. How I wish we could’ve done more together now that I’m working.
I lied to you a lot, and I’m sorry for that. I lied about a lot of things like not really having a driver’s license, and such. I promised you a lot of things, but I was in the phase of “faking til I make it” and I’m sorry I put you through that.
The pain of hating myself because I lied and promised a lot of things to you that caused you to stray away from me, I deserved that.
I just know I’ll never found someone like you again in my lifetime, I loved you Pat. And I miss you so bad. It’s been 2 years. If you happen to be reading this - please just give me one more chance. I’ve grown, and you did too. I miss you Pat.