u/Civil_Television1718

So ive been really struggling with this past couple weeks. I deep down have no desire to be with same sex like don’t wish i could if i could but my mind is telling me what if you were and would like that. Is that HOCD or denial. As far as i can remember i loved the female body. But I ended up with that thought in my head after i had groinal sensation talking with a coworker. I dont remember sexual attraction and know im very anxious to begin with. My mind is always somewhere else. Like i would be totally freaked out if i was. Like I’ve pondered everything possible i have no desire but my mind is second guessing that and i end up getting aniexty being around men now. Never was.

Does OCD have you still believe stuff even with evidence to suggest otherwise? I can look at a whole history of truth but in my mind think maybe it wasn’t. I’ve never been officially diagnosed., other than one phobia after another after another. Im starting to now take the steps to find the answers cause I’ve been struggling with this as a kid but now i have a family and it’s falling apart. Wife doesn’t understand she thinks im just a crazy jerk. But in my mind i obsess until it passes

Hi. So i need some help. I am 38 year old male. History of extreme anxiety and worry and I get a thought which I seem to fixate on until it passes. No official OCD diagnosis. Yet. Anyway my current situation is this. Ive been very anxious lately as i usually am. Well one day at work I had some groinal aroual at work in the middle of a conversation with a male coworker and it has caused a severe spiral into me questioning my sexuality. Like severe like i cant tell the difference anymore. Now im getting sexually intrusive thoughts constantly at work and gym and its giving me severe anxiety cause IM feeling groinal sensations. As far as I can remember ive been obsessed with women but mind doubts that . I go from sex with my wife to over 5 days a week and wearing her underwear on my face as a joke. To now questioning everything. Really troubled.