u/Clankus_Maximus69

I am currently traveling abroad for work for the first time in my career. My wife and I have been married for 3 years and life back home could not be better. We have a place together and love each-other both very much and we’re planning to start a family pretty much as soon as I return.

The women in this country are beautiful, and very kind especially when they find out that I am American. Over the past 3 weeks I’ve taken a liking to a young woman who looks like a blonde version of my wife and I cannot stop thinking about her and the things I want to do with her.

I know and understand how wrong it would be and If I’m honest I really don’t want to have a relationship with her, but I cannot get past how lonely I feel here despite FaceTiming with my wife almost every day.

To make matters worse, from a religious standpoint I have seen in my dreams what will happen if I cheat. My body is suspended over a perpetually decaying field of flowers with screaming skinless humanoid creatures floating next to me, and they flay me alive for eternity.

I do not want to cheat but my mind keeps trying to pull me into developing a plan and my dick is simply in agreement. I have so much to lose, but I feel like I’m losing my mind.

TLDR; I’m thinking about cheating but I don’t have the balls to actually do it.

About a month ago now I had a dream I was caged with probably a dozen or more sheep/lambs in a medieval village type setting. I tore the lambs and sheep limb from limb, covering the cage in blood and viscera as well as all the mud from the ground. At some point a nude woman appeared in front of me, and I proceeded to sodomize her. This ended in a wet dream that I promptly woke up from breathing heavy and very confused.

Fast forward to today, I slept well last night, but dreamt this morning that I was in a dystopian world, walking through burned and barren fields. There were skinless screaming human corpses floating in the air above the fields, it was completely surreal. I stared up at one of the wailing corpses and started levitating myself, the screaming grew louder and louder until I was the same height off the ground as it. Then I felt sharp pains on my wrists, ankles and neck. When I looked down, one of the corpses was peeling the skin from my body, and I realized the screaming was my own. I woke up panicked and confused. Please Reddit, what could this possibly mean?