Only child wants to move abroad
I’m an only child from Turkey. People can count hundreds of reasons for moving away from Turkey but for me the main one is I’m gay. This country has been homophobic for years and I doubt its gonna get to an acceptable state in my lifetime.
My many attempts at moving abroad at different stages of my life were kind of prevented - not exactly but kind of swayed/convinced otherwise - by my parents. So there is some pent up resentment there.
I’m now at the stage of my life where I’m financially independent. I’m a new doctor and am considering countries like australia, US and so on…
Germany is an option I know some German but damn I dont want to spend my life speaking German when I can do it in English.
UK everyone is talking negatively cause they passed some bill or smth to prioritize local graduates.
My parents are in their late 60s now, we never had the best relationship cause I never came out and that creates distance. I resent them for many things but also love them still in a way that I cant justify not caring for them at their old age.
On the other hand I’m not satisfied with my life here and am quite literally unhappy.
This brings me to a crossroads.
I am constantly in this cycle of “I’m leaving this shit and living my life to its fullest” and “my parents will need me soon and this country is not THAT bad”.