I cant stop eating strange stuff
For aslong as i can remember, ive been eating paper, notebooks, lead, pencils , toilet paper, hair products, even my own nails. Just anything i can get my hands on! One thing especially i cannot stop the temptation is paper. I obviously googled this loong ago and i get results for pica/xylophagia. The thing is; ive opened up to this to my brother since i still live with my parents, and all he has done is call me weird, disgusting, and telling me "Just stop?" a bunch when its mentioned. I want to get a proper diagnosis or something so that I can get help because ive heard that long term what I do is very damaging to intestines.
I just dont know how to tell my parents I want to go to the doctor or talk to someone about it. I get embarrassed super fast and I feel like now asking for something like thqt isnt a good time since there's more important medical stuff going on - like surgery for my mother and my brother. I just dont know how to approach it because I think its getting extreme now. Ive blown through countless notebooks! Ive gone to target to buy notebooks just to eat the entire thing. Countless. Times. I do live with my parents and I am a minor, so I genuinely dont know what to do.
To sum it, how can I tell my parents i wanna go to a doctor because I eat inedible food? Its so embarrassing, ive been meaning to do it but I feel like its such a stupid thing. I want to care for my health, Im so freaked out wondering if I have blockages in my intestines.. I just dont know how to approach it.