I’ve given up on relying on the youth and child mental health team after repeated issues, so I’m starting to look for any psychiatrists in the area that are informed on Bipolar and neurodivergence. Preferably not too expensive or someone that has a portion of payments taken by medicare rebates. Any insights or recommendations would be greatly appreciated, thank you!!
edit: im really sorry if this is just insane rambling i didnt realize i had so much to say, please tell me if this isn't appropriate to have hear and i'll delete asap
So hi hello, after my first hypomanic episode around january I ended up being diagnosed with type 2 and being put on mood stabilizers. Have been majorly depressed and having chunks of dissociative episodes since that landed me in (semi-voluntary) prevention facility and so on.
So about a week ago now I recognized some signs that I might be going into hypomania as per my prevention plan made and printed by my case worker but thought it was all fine and good because I'm on meds but also have bpd, so i thought it was just brief euphoria. Then there was a big event in a day that was very unpleasant and it's all spiralled into a fun but still hellish hell from there. I've been trying to get ahold of my social worker and psych for THREE WEEKS NOW but still have no calls or messages despite reception saying they would so I'm thinking about just never going back and rawdogging it.
Ive worked 50 hours in a week be choice, am now social and receiving complements instead of being a quiet depressed loser, am hallucinating more than normal (but still to a minimal degree), and haven't really been sleeping and making overall very poor life decisions.
i actually have no idea what to do. it's no bad enough to warrent going to the ER that will do nothing but make everything worse and I'm also not willing to go in regardless. I have no family or friends to talk to and my housemates don't know about any of my mental issues. I'm scared it will end up like last time or worse and I'll do something i actually wont be able to come back from. I was looking at one-wy flights early but realised i don't have a passport earlier, my body feels like its gonna explode, and its getting more into mix-episode territory this evening now as the agitation and paranoia set in but that might just be bpd stuff since ihavent been taking my meds.
I have no idea what to do and would like literaly any insight that prefferably isn't just "go to the er" since my social worker still isn't contactable as of today and I have work on wednesday I don't want to miss by potentially being in hospital. I don't have the guts or patience to call a hotline and keep hanging-up / chickening out while waiting. I'm still kind of just a kid dealing with all this even if I'm all "moved out and a uni student and all that", like i dont even have anyone in my life anymore that cares or knows or id even trust to help.
Just started looking into liquid meal replacements like fortisip, ensure, sustagen, etc because I can’t even think about keeping meals down without debilitating nausea. This flare is kicking my ass rn but I want to still stay safe since I’m already not doing too well nutritionally or physically. Probably doesn’t help that I have a VERY physically active job tbh.
Anyone here use liquid supplements with meals or in place of them? I’m curious as to if they help at all or if this is a common choice since I’m weirdly cagey and embarrassed about meal supplements as a 19 year old guy.
Thank you for any insights or for just reading through this!