Quitting weed, need advice
I’m 22 and I’ve been smoking daily since I was 19. It was very helpful in finding my creative side in the beginning, but as I used it more frequently in larger quantities, it made my anxiety much worse. I’ve struggled with intense anxiety all my life but it became so bad in the period I was smoking most that I couldn’t work. I was even diagnosed with social anxiety, something I hadn’t really experienced since I was 15. It’s still hard to say how much of this can be blamed on weed, but it definitely takes some of the blame. I was diagnosed with epilepsy late last year and was forced to quit. It was really easy because I had this health thing giving me no other option. The seizures went away only 2 weeks after quitting, before the anti-seizure meds were even supposed to kick in. But then 5 months later I’m thinking “it would be okay to try it one more time,” and of course it wasn’t. Now another 2 months later, I’m a daily smoker again. I was smoking bowls before but now I’m using a pen because it’s easier to hide. There were stressors that contributed to this relapse of course. Lots of life changes hitting me at once, and I guess I eventually couldn’t keep up. Anxiety worsening and using it to cope again. Now I’m off my new job on unpaid medical leave for anxiety. Experiencing probably the worst mental health of my life. I know I need to quit but it’s the best maladaptive coping mechanism for me. It only makes me feel better sometimes but it’s those times I’m chasing because being conscious is so unbearable. I’m in therapy and have a psychiatrst, and I’m very honest about how I’m feeling at all times, I just don’t tell them I’m smoking. Because they know it’s been a problem for me in the past and that I’m not supposed to because of epilepsy. I am too embarrassed to tell anyone but my boyfriend. I’ve tried to quit multiple times. I really want to quit on my own and I’m hoping posting here and making a commitment and asking for advice will be what I need.
That’s the gist of my addiction. Any advice???? :)))