u/Comfortable_Dot_511

I had failed last time due to a prescribed painkiller in my system since I forgot to bring medical documentation from my surgeon. I went to apply this time and got to the screen with all of the steps to complete before being hired where I saw my I9 and drug test were already marked as complete with a set start date. It wouldn't be a problem if I did need to retest but I'm confused as to how this happened. I worked at an amazon warehouse once a couple of years ago before failing the last drug test but that's it.

I feel a little ridiculous asking this at 28 years old, but it's kind of making me ruin my own life. I've always been an angry person. Not in a "I want to hurt others" way but in a "I'm angry at myself or a situation" way.

Emotions were something that were never talked about in my family. The household rule was basically "If you're not happy or quiet, go to your room and be quiet." Despite the repeated punishments I continued to be an angry person.

The issue is now I'm an adult and have been trying to take control of my problems for the last decade. I understand a lot of the WHY I'm so angry; a lot of it is sadness and grief, but much of it is for reasons that are impossible to change so I'm just sort of stuck with my emotions. It continues to show up in my life in little ways and understandably strains my relationships with the people around me. I don't want to be stuck like this forever so any help is appreciated.