u/Comfortable_Two_4834

I kinda want to install the Rule a Nation mod, but idk how to install BepInEx on it let alone any mods to play, i havent been able to find any help on google

my school is undergoing a queer/soft guy purge (despite various other problems) and they say its unaligned with fitrah (the natural state) since they say were created to be with the opposite sex only, the they bring up the story of Lot at a very surface level(which to my opinion holds a lot of nuance to it like the rape on travellers, queers always have existed b4 the story)

would appreciate if there were any other texts/hadith/historical proof or whatnot leaning to either side

what do i do when i like my friend who is straight (not so supportive of queers), maybe sees me as just a friend and likes an old friend of his, kinda hard to let go since he's the reason i knew im bi 🫠

Im a muslim bi teen, and i can't fathom why a man who bullies, kills and hates others is able to go to jannah while a person whom he can't choose to love is destined for hell.

Currently, i believe that Allah may be with me because he loves all his creations so long as they are sincere, good and loving as was commanded by Allah. But then again why is something so simple even worse than murder and robbery in the eyes of many, and perhaps Allah?

Is Allah's love like this, or how?

i (15M) have recently gotten into this mess when i found out that i kinda like my best friend (who's presumably straight) which i still do now. However i live in a very conservative country, learn at a boarding school founded on the premise of racial supremacy and conservative beliefs, and overall surrounded by conservative friends (except 1 potential ally that i have yet to come out to) and family.

to make matters worse, the nutjobs there dislike/have a focus on me due to my progressive beliefs AND im one of the candidates for joining religious organisation/body there (prob cuz im one of the more behaving and maybe cuz my 'acting' has attracted unwanted attention, although i do have a plan to somehow 'progressify' the org? idk)

sorry for the wall of text, im unsafe from all sides now, so got any tips to steer thru this situation

I sorta feel lonely and melancholic at times, and that makes me think of why must it be this way and so on. But then i see others living care-free as if they have it all figured out with what i would need

For context usually in whatever relationship, project or group i'm in i always end up contributing the most and receive the least whether because i volunteer or am forced to do so in certain situations.

So then again, is it my fault for having too high standards or being to cynical, or am i just in my cause. btw im not seeking to validate myself, but things are just too messy to figure it out.

So really i'm asking on how do clear this dilemma without being self-centered nor self betraying