u/Commercial-Barber451

Ita been a long time since this post, tbh I completely forgot about and I think that says a lot about how I am.

I started taking antidepressants almost 2 years ago and believe me they saved my life. I was in the darkest place I've ever been,thinking about horrible things and im so happy I decided to keep going.

Therapy changed everything. I started going every week,my therapist (also a psychiatrist) helped me realize that this is something that sometimes I can't control and I need to accept that. Anxiety is a BITCH and ut can control your whole life. And thats why I started the medication cause I was waaaay gone when I started. I had no other choice.

Rn after almost 2 years I've never been better. I've gotten my routine back,I work for myself, im happy and taking it a day at a time.

What I would recommend to people dealing with anxiety and its symptoms: DONT KILL YOURSELF!

I know thats a crazy thing to say but believe me most people that go through this have the most negative thoughts. It's hard to see past your problems.

What i did was try to focus on things I want to achieve in my life. Like longterm things. And that helped me calm down a bit cause I knew that what im going though is not permanent!! It passes like everything else.

I have a sister who is 29 and a best friend who is my age(25)

We all grew up together and shared everything.

We had this friend group of kids that grew up in the same village as us and we were all great friends.

When we we're like 16 years old we decided to have a sleep over.

Unfortunately I couldn't go I don't remember why exactly tbh.

The next day my best friend comes over to my house crying and panicking. I ask her what happened and she told me that one of our male friends sexually harassed her.

The story goes: She went to bed early cause she suffers from chronic migraines so she left the group to go sleep.

And the other friend let's call him Meep,went in the same room and laid in the same bed

She was already sleeping when this happened. After a while she was awaken by a feeling on her behind area. He was trying to put his hand inside her pants etc

When she realized what was going on she got up and immediately left the house.

She didn't feel comfortable sharing it,especially to the men of the group because Meep was known for being the class clown,loved by everyone type of guy.

After a couple of years,my sister started dating this guy and my best friend felt that she had to let my sister know what Meep did to her because she deserves to know what kind of person she's in a relationship with.

My sister freaked out and immediately believed her and told Meep.

Meep got embarrassed and admitted to doing it. And my sister felt bad for him cause he seemed like he regrets it.

She said that the had a long converation about it and he seemed like he felt extremely bad for what he did. But they continued dating.

One day another friend of our found out what happened all these years ago and asked Meep about it and he got super defensive and started distancing himself too.And I called my sister cause I found out about that and she snapped at me saying that my best friend is lying about what happened and how she made it all up because she liked Meep and tried to hit on him and got rejected.

Which NEVER happened.

Meep already admitted it and my sister knew that he did it.So why would she just straight up change her mind overnight and stopped believing my best friend.

She got traumatized by that and found it hard to trust men and to have sex for the first time because she felt like she was being violated everytime a man tried to touch her sexually. I tried talking to my sister to ask her why she decided to stop believing my best friend and all she says is that "we don't know what happened and its all made up,no one knows me and no one loves me and we are all narcissistic and other shit like that"

Since then I've cut all ties with both of them,they've moved to a different country and the don't talk to anyone in their life except each other.It's been like this for 4 years now and when they DO reach out is to ask for money from my mom cause they spend all their on weed and other stuff.So AMTI for choosing my best friend over my sister?