Birthdays
My birthday is always first no matter if my friends are younger or older my birthday gives me a reality check. I never had true friends growing up I would argue I don’t really have any now. this year for my birthday I decided to celebrate with friends for the first time ever since my other parties were with my family. i planned two days trying to accommodate for everyone’s time and schedul ome group will have a birthday lunch while the others will go bowling. everyone was excited and picked which one works for them but the week of the lunch, 1 out of 5 showed up. one friend canceled last minute because they might not have the energy to go.
i brought this up because their birthday is soon and they invite me to their birthday party. I am bitter that they didn’t go to mine but I bit my tongue because I try to follow the phrase if you want a village you have to be a village. my mom and sister said I shouldn’t go because I show up for everyone but they don’t show up for me. Especially in this case where their reason was that they might not have the energy to attend.
i raise the question, is my mom right and should I not go? I’m only 20 will it ever get better friendship wise or is friendship like this at every age?