u/Commercial-Smile-789

Soo I’ve never shifted and it’s my first few times trying to shift to my dr.

When I start the process, I lay on my right side and stop moving and I’m telling the script to myself, it’s the things like what my dr is, how the time ratio is gonna be or what my safe word is. After that, I like create an infinity sign in my head and on the left hole, I create a door which I open and behind that door is like brightness and my dr is down there, so I go through the door and fall to my dr. Also, in my dr I’m holding on to a railing which is to ensure that I “arrive” there.

However, when I tried to shift right there, it seemed to work kinda. After like 30 minutes of thinking about these things, I was “unconscious”. Not really unconscious, but do you know the feeling when you’re just about to fall asleep and your mind has already shut down? This is what I mean. But I wasn’t aware of that unconsciousness, it was till I started pulling myself from that railing I talked about earlier and i had the feeling it was going to work now.
So as it almost happened, I suddenly saw/imagined a black hole or like darkness and in the middle of it was like an eye of a wolf at least that’s what I imagine. Seeing this got me scared and somehow it disturbed my shifting and my progress got back to zero.

Also, when I feel like I’m about to shift, my heart begins to race and I get really nervous and that sadly also interrupts my shifting and I don’t know what to do about it.

Should I ignore this darkness? Or what can I do about that? How was my attempt? Was it even like a mini shift or was it just imagination of mine?

Thank you very much if you’ve paid attention to my text and I’m really excited to hear of you guys.

Soo I’ve never shifted and it’s my first few times trying to shift to my dr.

When I start the process, I lay on my right side and stop moving and I’m telling the script to myself, it’s the things like what my dr is, how the time ratio is gonna be or what my safe word is. After that, I like create an infinity sign in my head and on the left hole, I create a door which I open and behind that door is like brightness and my dr is down there, so I go through the door and fall to my dr. Also, in my dr I’m holding on to a railing which is to ensure that I “arrive” there.

However, when I tried to shift right there, it seemed to work kinda. After like 30 minutes of thinking about these things, I was “unconscious”. Not really unconscious, but do you know the feeling when you’re just about to fall asleep and your mind has already shut down? This is what I mean. But I wasn’t aware of that unconsciousness, it was till I started pulling myself from that railing I talked about earlier and i had the feeling it was going to work now.
So as it almost happened, I suddenly saw/imagined a black hole or like darkness and in the middle of it was like an eye of a wolf at least that’s what I imagine. Seeing this got me scared and somehow it disturbed my shifting and my progress got back to zero.

Also, when I feel like I’m about to shift, my heart begins to race and I get really nervous and that sadly also interrupts my shifting and I don’t know what to do about it.

Should I ignore this darkness? Or what can I do about that? How was my attempt? Was it even like a mini shift or was it just imagination of mine?

Thank you very much if you’ve paid attention to my text and I’m really excited to hear of you guys.