u/CommissionGrouchy504

I mean clubs not like clubs, with alcohol and stuff, but like place where people could talk, play games and everything like that, cause I'm not 18.

Yeah, I just wanted to ask about it, cause every site I found was really unclear about real life meetings and that's exactly what I need. I really want to speak with other queer people, share experience, find something new and all that stuff. If you know group where people could speak english instead of german it would be great, but only if you know, cause I think there`s no such things here.

Today was the first time, when she called me by my new name, and not the dead one. That's cool, I know I should be grateful, cause some parents doesn't even try to accept their kid. Many people would do anything for that. But I? I can't help but feel emptiness.

I keep asking myself "why?". Why she did it only now? I asked her several times, and she always had the same answer, but today I had a bad mood and felt very disphoric, so I told her everything in face. I told her that I don't want to talk with a person, who keeps deadnaming me. And only now, when I ignored her, she called me the right way. I don't understand, were my requests not enough? Why did she start only when I became rude? I tried so hard, and still it wasn't enough? And why am I so ungrateful? I wanted it so badly, and still act like it's a bad thing, why?