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I let my sister borrow one of my purses and was very specific about needing it back soon. When it was time to return it, she went off on me about how I didn’t need it, how she needed it more, and how greedy I was. Then she threw it down the stairs to “return” it to me.
If she acted like this when we were kids, maybe I could excuse it, but we’re adults now. At least I’ve grown out of acting like that. Things have only gotten worse over time. During another argument she broke a plate and screamed at me, even threatening to kill me because I “talk back” to her.
I can’t really talk to my parents about it because they just say things like, “Yeah, she’s mean, don’t think too much of it.” There are never any real consequences, though honestly there shouldn’t have to be because we’re too old for this behavior in the first place.
At this point I want to cut her out of my life, cause there’s so more things she has done to me. Constantly Insult me and stole thousands of dollars from me a couple years ago which I never told my parents. I want her out of my life but it’s hard when we live in the same house. I already know the next time she asks me for something and I say no, the whole cycle is going to start again. I don’t even know if there’s a point in telling my parents I want her out of my life because they’ll probably just say, “You’re sisters, just talk it out,” and promise she’ll be nicer even though nothing ever changes.
I need advice on what to do, I feel like I can’t talk to anymore. I don’t want her near me any more, I don’t want her texting me to do stuff for her. But again I can’t really “ignore” her either cause we live in the same house. Even though it’s been like this since childhood, It’s makes me sad that it has come to this point.

I don’t like talking about religion with other people because I don’t want to get into debates, especially with Christians, since it often turns into, “How do you not believe in God?” And in a way, I do believe. I don’t know if it’s the people-pleaser in me, but why would I say I don’t believe in something that I’ve seen help and guide others?

I believe in Buddhism, and it has brought peace into my life. I feel content with my beliefs and where I stand. At the same time, I also believe there is a God out there, I mean, Buddhism have gods too, just in a different way.

So, in short, my religion is Buddhism but I believe there is a God out there for Christians, and I believe in Allah for Muslims and so on. Religion is about belief, and just because I believe in one thing doesn’t mean that other beliefs don’t exist. In a way, I wished religion didn't tear us apart and that people understood that there is no right or wrong in religion.

Maybe it’s because I’ve never been in love or had a boyfriend, but even so, the idea of marriage is… I have no words. Like imagining loving someone so deeply and knowing that no one else in the world is right for you but him. Trusting someone completely, without any fear or insecurities. Being willing to share all your secrets without feeling judged. Caring about someone so much that you would forgive even the unforgivable and still love their flaws. Sacrificing to save the marriage and even being willing to CARRY CHILDREN'S for them.

I don’t know—maybe it’s because I’ve never felt that way about anyone before, or maybe I have a naïve imagination of what marriage is supposed to look like. I don’t know if I can ever really trust someone and let myself fully love them. I don’t know if I’ll ever truly let someone in. I don’t know if I’ll ever have complete faith that things will work out forever. And I don’t know if I’ll ever lose the feeling that he might someday leave me. Maybe part of it is because I think I'll never find that kind of love or that I deserve it.

For all the married people or people in general, what is marriage? What were you feeling when you got married?