u/Competitive-Top5121

I need to exorcise some thoughts about this album. Love hearing other takes because sometimes they can open my mind to things I didn’t appreciate, but also wondering if anyone else feels the same way.

This album feels hastily done and halfhearted, IMO. Ben remarked that this album sounds a lot closer to the demos than most of their albums do, and I’m not sure that’s a good thing! It sounds raw — too raw. For years now, they have been moving away from the layered, atmospheric sound Walla’s production tended to provide, but this album feels like a total rejection of that sensibility, which is part of what makes DCFC special for me.

Lyrically it seems like Ben has done some good personal work to dig up more complex, profound thoughts about relationships and breakups (he probably owes a big thank you to his therapist), but I don’t think the lyrics make up for the music.

I found “Asphalt Meadows” to be uneven but it’s grown on me a bit with time. And I do like some songs on this album. I can appreciate the roughness of “Punching the Flowers.” I enjoy “Stone Over Water” and “Trap Door” but I wouldn’t say I love them. “Envy the Birds” is a biiig skip for me. The chorus of “Pep Talk” feels awkward and I get bored of both versions of “I Built You a Tower.” Overall I’m just disappointed. This one and “Thank You for Today” are probably my least favorite DCFC albums.

OK, I did it! Thoughts exorcised. I just wanted more from this album but I have also kind of felt like the last handful of albums were missing some je ne sais quois. 🤷‍♀️

So I’m getting ready for my first FET, and today was when I started progesterone suppositories. I always have anxiety about starting a new med because I’m always stressed I’m going to make a mistake. I take Unisom to sleep so I have vivid dreams, and yesterday I read a bunch of (very helpful) posts about what to expect on progesterone, specifically Endometrin. Great, feeling prepared.

So last night I dreamt that I took my progesterone suppository and thought, huh, that wasn’t such a big deal. It wasn’t uncomfortable and it was so small. Then, to my horror, Dream Me (who is usually about 3x as dumb as Real Me) realized I’d shoved a prenatal vitamin up my cooter instead of the Endometrin. I was beating myself up and thinking, *ugggh, of course it’s the wrong one! It didn’t fizz like Alka-Seltzer, you stupid bitch! That’s what all the redditors said it would do! You should have known!*

That’s it, that’s my post.

Exactly what the title says — have the “friendships” between the women always been this messy, with ever-shifting alliances? Or am I just figuring out how tangled this web is because I only joined the subreddit a couple months ago and I’m sipping the between-seasons tea?

AFAIK Taylor is cool with Jessi and Jessi’s cool with Mayci but Taylor isn’t cool with Mayci or Mikayla and Mikayla isn’t cool with Jessi who Miranda now isn’t cool with either. Taylor is somehow cool with Demi who appears to be cool with no one else. Jen? Who knows? And Whitney’s outta there, of course. So the villain of season 1 appears to be the most level-headed and normal of them all in some ways?

I cannot keep track. Was it always like this?

Exactly what the title says — have the “friendships” between the women always been this messy, with ever-shifting alliances? Or am I just figuring out how tangled this web is because I only joined the subreddit a couple months ago and I’m sipping the between-seasons tea?

AFAIK Taylor is cool with Jessi and Jessi’s cool with Mayci but Taylor isn’t cool with Mayci or Mikayla and Mikayla isn’t cool with Jessi who Miranda now isn’t cool with either. Taylor is somehow cool with Demi who appears to be cool with no one else. Jen? Who fucking knows. And Whitney’s outta there, of course. So the villain of season 1 appears to be the most level-headed and normal of them all in some ways?

I cannot keep track. Was it always like this?

Psych! FUCK THIS SHIT!

My previous record for a menstrual cycle after ER was 44 days. I’m a remote patient and if my period takes even one more day to arrive I’ll have to push back my FET schedule by a whole week.

Fuck this shit. Fuck it fuck it fuck it.