Introducing my partner to Agere? TW, dont read when little
Slight Trigger warning; drinking
Ive been in a relationship for over a month with my boyfriend. Hes noticed quite a few times how different i can get as well the fact i have a load of toys and some teethers so he decided to do his own research and somehow came to discover age regression. I really didn't think he'd find it since no one irl has ever found out but he somehow did. I was scared of him finding out since he usually dates older guys since he prefers maturity, im the first younger guy hes dated. He knows ive definitely got a slightly childish side and was fine with it. And somehow even after learning about Agere, he seems fine with it but its eating my stomach alive.
We had a few drinks a week ago, in which we had a small discussion bc i had mentioned him hating me as i was drunk. Which i never actually said i was a little nor did he, but he asked if it was two words, began with an A and R. I dont think he quite understands what it is but im not sure how to explain it myself since i never have done before. He had mentioned wanting to be caring towards me but im absolutely terrified and im not even sure why. We've been doing slight exposure to agere. For example, when im on reddit, i usually hide this subreddit whenever we scroll together, but this time i let him have a scroll when he asked. He learnt about CGs and stuff, then asked if he'd be that for me and i had said never out of embarrassment since im a really masculine man and keeping that image of myself is really important with him to me but it did crumble lol.
Ive only been fully regressed with him once for a few hours around two days ago. We just watched stuff on his phone and drank hot chocolate since it was nearly bedtime. I did go big before we slept for some reason which never happens to me, but is probably since it was the first time around him.
We had a small convo before we slept about how it was since it was a slight suprise but he knew it was gonna happen after we went on a walk. He sort of understood how id be, but said i felt tamer than usual which i explained since ive not been around people like that, plus it was night time. He wants to come over to mine and be with me for when it next happens. Im also terrified of but i can only hope its fine.
However he did mention wanting to tell his mother, who is a really nice woman and treats me like im her own child. But i really dont want anyone else to know as its slightly embarrassing since im a man. Im not sure how to explain it to him, he said he wouldn't tell her without my permission but he does think she should know in case it ever happens when over at their house since hes finished uni moving back to our city. Hes also worried im gonna go broke buying toys i want as majority of what i have is toys.
I have no idea what to say to him or how to explain anything. Im pretty sure ive rambled but id appreciate any help or advice