I’m almost 100% sure I’m done and cooked
Hi 👋 35M here this is my first and last ever Reddit post probably , as you can see from the title I’m cooked , I try to keep this as short as possible because I know most people’s attention span is very limited ( I probably already lost 90% of ppl here). When I was young I always wondered what kind of life will I have once I grow up , buy a house somewhere have a family loving wife kids I couldn’t wait to grow up , here I’m 20 years later where dreams are dead at this point I’m alone living abroad in a foreign country have no family no girlfriend haven’t even had any women be interested in me in the last 15 years , why is that ? Well I’m extremely average looking at best I might even be very generous here I’m balding and I’m not rich by any means , obviously I’ve been involved in semi toxic situationships with women the past 15 years but haven’t had anybody serious , you know the type that would text you good morning or good night , so I did the math the other day in my head and even if I find someone now I’m 35 by the time we get to know each other and trust each other we gonna be 38 38 by the time we consider kids I’m gonna be 40 + so no matter how I look at it it’s probably over for me , I wonder what my 15 year old self would think if he would know how things end up ? So all I’m doing now is work , gym and travel once a year , have probably less than 5 close friends. I don’t want any advice really but I just really wanted to write this down somewhere hoping it would make me feel better have the weight off my shoulders, I know there is a loneliness epidemic in this modern world governed by instagram gurus and also I wonder who said love is blind ? Dno if love even exists anymore, probably not in the same traditional form like a 100 years ago but love is definitely not blind it’s actually the exact opposite, love in my opinion is a luxury reserved for the few who are very handsome good looking and or rich , unfortunately there is no love for ugly people out there , well with this my retirement is in full effect I think , thank you for reading and have a nice day 👋🏻