u/CondingWasp

Hey everyone,

It is 3 months since jumping of mirtazapine (2month taper from 15mg before jumping off).

Last few weeks have been very stressful. Had a sinus infection. Also developed a mild sensitivity to crowded places. This all results in me being 'on edge'. I get a tinkling/tickling feeling around me body, muscles, head, and joints. Chest tightenss a lot. I become sensitive to all sorts of things.

The only thing that makes me calm is a benzo, specifically lexotanil. I use it very sparingly, but dozes around 1.5mg seem to do the trick. My cognitive abilities come back, body settles down. I keep tired and demotivated, but at least functional.

How are your experiences in controlling withdrawal through benzos? My doctor suggested that suffering through withdrawal and anxiety is also not an option, especially when I have responsibilities.

I try to use lexotanil very sparingly, and only when I need to. Last two weeks I have to take it every second workday. I don't take it on weekends, since I don't have to work.

Hello all,

For the past 2 years I'm deeling with what I call somatic anxiety. Not sure if this is the right definition, but I'll try to summarize.

Problems started in the beginning of 2024. I used to get stressed quite frequently, but a lot of things accumulated at the same time and broke down my immune system. This resulted in a few virus infections one after another.

Right after I got better, close family members were diagnosed with late stage cancer. This completely broke me down, and sent my body into a constant state of tension and anxiety.

I was put on antidepressants and after changing a few I settled down on mirtazapine. It fixed a lot of things, helped me sleep and dampened this body anxiety/tension. While mirtazapine dampened it, the tension still stayed. I felt the pressure being artificially brought down.

I eventually managed to quit the antidepressant in the end of February, but I kind of got back into the same position as before. I don't feel psychological anxiety, but my body is in a state of stress. I wake up, cortisol kicks in, and continues to stay through the bigger part of the day. It feels as if low voltage electricity is connected to me, and the ache/pain migrates all the time. Being in public places or participanting in long video calls, seem to br big triggers to this state. Diziness is also a part of the problem. The only time I get rest is while sleeping. I crash like a brick.

I'm currently somewhat lost. I want to find a remedy, but don't know what else to try. The only thing that seemingly works are long walks outsode.

Docs did a dozen or tests/scans and found nothing. I get the recommendation to try and 'relax', or get back on meds.

Hi there.

Been on 15mg mirt for 9months (before that had used 3 other antidepressants, but nothing really worked. Total stay on antidepressants 12 months). Being on mirt was not pleasant, but at least I was not going crazy from anxiety and tension.

I started my taper on January 1st and was completely off by the end of February. Tapering wasn't easy. Emotional changes, malaise, diahrea, insomnia, with occasional windows feeling awesome. It coincided with 2 months also being at home and not working.

Since the beginning of March i'm back to work and without any antidepressants. Situation is very mixed. First month or so was not too bad, but then from April onwards i'm feeling more and more anxiety and physical discomfort.

I can manage the anxiety, but physically it's very hard. I could describe the situation as feeling weak, but not being actually weak. Example: I can go on long walks 6-8km(4-5miles) and feel completely fine, but it takes so much effort to do so.

Aches and pains migrate accross the body. Daytime diziness that bothers me a lot. If I end up in places with a lot of people, nervousness get activated and I feel the urge to get out. Each turn feels like i'm about to collapse.

My job requires me to have quite a few video calls during the day, and each of them exhausts me. The only time I feel somewhat good is the evening when there are no responsibilities left. Just sleep. I sleep like a brick.

What is strange that during the video calls I am no longer sweating. I used to sweat quite a lot before all my problems. I use bisoprolol/perindopril for elevated HR/BP, but I also used it during my usage of mirtazapine, and I did sweat.

I did a full range of blood tests check and found nothing except a few very small defficiencies in Vitamin D and Feritin. Neither was critical.

Doctors cannot really offer me anything apart from suggesting to stick it out, or use a benzo to control anxiety during the day when it gets really bad.

My suspicion is that my general nervous system is rilled up and is not able to work out how to operate properly.

Writing here to vent, and get some support 😞

Needing advice here.

I originally wanted to wait it out and try my luck in getting a Steam Machine, but after watching a few suggestions about getting more power from a self build, I decided to overthink my strategy.

First and foremost what am I seeking.

1. Small Factor

2. PC that I can leave on my home office desk, but then stream PC games to my TV via Apple TV/Steam Link.

3. I don't need max performance and quality. Just want things to look decent.

4. I want to reuse some of the things I already have.

I currently have a small ASrock mini x300 with an AMD 5600G / 1TB NVME / 32GB DDR4-3200 and Noctua fan. This serves as my home server running docker services, but it is way overpowered for what it needs to do.

The plan:

1. Get a Deskmeet x300

2. Take 5600G, DDR4 and Noctua out of the mini and add it into the deskmeet.

3. Get a Power Color 9060xt

4. Install Bazzite and enjoy and pair the Steam Controller to it.

Concerns:

1. 5600G, there are better things, but already have it. My hope is that 9060xt will carry the burden.

2. PSU and temperature. I expect the box will be cramped and hot. I belive the PSU is also going to blast air inside the box. Are there better/smaller alternatives?

Does this sound like wise thing at all?

It may sound strange, but my primary wish to get Steam Frame is because of the possibility to project a screen and play all of my indie games, or stream some AAA titles from my PC. VR games don't really interest me that much.

I want this primarily so I could play stufd while lying in bed.

Am I the only one? Perhaps this is a bad use case?